A twist of events

Was on a fantastic 4 era yesterday with only 2 arrivals. Anku, Zai, Wonder Woman and I. Ended up cleaning the front desk and back office, preparing more key card jackets, replenishing miscellaneous forms and scolding alongside communicating with each other in filipino. It's such a fun day! At least, we managed to make time pass.

After work, Zai had to go home sleep because he had a date with fad 10 hours later & My Wonder Woman had a Halloween party to attend to. I was so surprised that Shazzie actually made her way to the hotel without my help,haha. such a smart girl! As Majestic bar was full, we ended up going to thai disco at golden mile complex. After being there with all the music, the dancers, the hostess, the ambience, that kind of enjoyment is not my cup of tea. Above all, I still prefer the irish pub over at Marina square like Jon recommended. Quiet, relaxing, just a typical chillout corner to drink and chat with your friends. Very fulfilling. And I still miss my Jager Bomb people! next time we have it, be sure to mix it on my behalf,haha! Around 1 plus, I was absolutely tired, Shazzie made her way to meet Jason at Clarke Quay and I went on home. I reached home just in time to take a hot shower and lie on my bed to snore and sleep like a chubby teddy bear. Feeling very tired now! Stay tuned for my next entry people! Its gonna be Super END tmr!

Edwin

I realized the meaning of my name - Edwin. It means 'A friendly spirit'. A friend closer than a brother. Am I a good friend? Lately, all my friends have been there for me but I don't seem to have any strength to be there for them,so I guess I don't qualify to be a friendly spirit no more. There are ups and downs in all aspects,you can't possibly please them all.

Met up with Phebe today. After ages of dating each other out,this date finally got through. I miss this best friend so bloody much! Love talking to you and your company babe..Great supper outing,waiting for our movie date! hehe..

Finally my filipino batman is back at work! I wanna go get another pint of erdinger white and jager bomb! 10 jager bombs bro! haha..

Love Quotes

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

Dedicate your life to God, though choose carefully who you dedicate your love to.

Some say love is life, but love without hope and faith is an agonizing death.

All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

Could you love without having to give a reason?
Could you hate without having to tell the truth?
Could you recover from a wound so deep and fall in love again?
Could you really forget your past and live for the present?
Could you say you have hope and faith out loud when actually you don't?
Could you turn back time so you can make things better?
Could you be someone you're not?
God works in mysterious ways, why can't love be the same as well?
If you're destined to be alone,would you be able to take it?
If the truth was told,could you still treat the person the same way?
If you knew what lies ahead of you, would you do everything in your power to prevent it even if you're destined not to do anything about it?

I don't know

When I'm high and tipsy, I can't control my mind. Flashes of you keep popping in my head. Everything I do, everywhere I walk, everyone I talk to, It's like I'm ....... I don't know the end of this sentence but I know it doesn't end well.I just wanna lose my memories. Its painful and now its affecting my self-consciousness. I will probably wake up one day and find myself drifted out at sea.

My Nepalese Flash and Singaporean Ah Beng now doing night shift. Hopefully,this time, they will remember my wake up call.Night Night!

I am sad! Fucking sad!

Running desk with Rihanna

Well,I am running desk with my beloved Rihanna today. With SuperLia coming later at 9 for meeting with MGNT.Now I miss my Wonder Woman..3 departures and 7 arrivals. Yippy! I ordered curry chicken rice for breakfast but I am gonna buy donuts later! Yummy yummy yummy, I've got love in my tummy!

20 mins later.. Oh my goodnes gracious me! The curry chicken rice is super duper spicy! I should have asked for less chilli. Rihanna is now worried that I will pollute her fresh air with my nice-smelling ass. So many maintenance personnel to call today. Ok, I will end up throwing away half of my breakfast. I can feel my stomach and ass exploding already. Oh Mampos! For updates, pls stay tuned! See ya..

Sleepy Sleepy!

I feel so sleepy. I only slept for less than 4 hours last night. I feel fine emotionally,why do I still feel so lethargic?I feel stable but its hard to sleep at night, Maybe I am not used to things yet. Uzairi! Better be more sarcastic with me so I will feel more at home..I miss the company of my Filipino Batman and my Thai Late God.

Standard B

Today's like any other standard B Shift. With Lia and Super Trainee Anku, I can just sit down and shake legs. haha. Kidding. There was not that many check in but 1 annoying party room. So instead of guest services executives, we were policemen and hotel bouncers. Had to make sure that the capacity of the room is under control and the noise level is within limits. The good thing is,most of the check-ins were done @ 1500 hrs sharp,even before handover was complete. And just because of one comment I made, Diana and Pam have joined Lia and Zai in teasing me. Good work People! making me more malu ah?haha,I will get back at you guys 1 day.hehe. You never know guys,my ass shows no mercy even if you put a cork in it. Gonna take Diana and Pam for my beloved Grandma's fortune-telling next sunday before END take charge. Edwin, Nurdiana & Deine! Super END to the rescue!hehe..

Today's much better for me..I am beginning to the appreciate the smaller things in life and concentrate on the big picture. Leave the unhappy past behind and focus on Happiness! So proud of me!

NMH Staff reading my blog- Better comment on my tagboard or "Our Friendship is ....!" Well,you know how this sentence ends,haha! Ciao people, stay tuned for my next entry!

Happy

Woke up and decided to go through the stuff that was thrown in my face. I spent 30 mins to look through it and I have put it behind me.They're all history.. I know that being at work will help me not to think about stuff so I went there super early and ended up having lunch with Zai and Deine. We had burger king. Lovely & Delicious! I treat them to a hershey's sundae pie each. Then at work, Zai and Lia keep making indirect jokes about Deine and I,very naughty people.. So "our friendship is over!" haha,just kidding..

Work was messy, we very rarely had 1 check-in at a time, it was mostly mass check-on at one go to the point that Zai, Deine ( who are in training) and Jasmine from 1929 actually helped out. It was fun yet in order as well. Then, Lia and I had a little conflict in between. But we managed to work things out. I joined Ms Alison Carroll fan club and now Desmond says he's joining too..hehe!

Jon better wear a bomb suit for Zai's 1 on 1, but he better wear a terminator's body armour because its gonna be end-of-the-world 1 on 1 session with me.

Tomorrow is gonna be LAG. Super LAG! Lia, Anku & Gordon! haha,ok i am super lame right now. Night Night People! ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz.....

Hope for a new start

Today was rather a huge slap in the face. I could see the agony in my own bro when he had no choice but to give back all the things that I had given to you. Even the couple watch, the gifts, the hundreds of origami hearts which I folded for you. It all came flying back in my face. But that wasn't the disappointing part. To actually hear that you denied saying 'I love you' to me when you actually did on the day i sent you to work. And that you love everyone an equal amount like you love me so as to say its something like I love you as a friend. If thats what you have been feeling for these 2 years, then I guess you're right. I deserve better. You have changed so much,its so drastic that I wish I am dreaming right now. I guess I haven't been the man of your dreams,so I hope that whoever you find can give you the happiness that I couldn't give you. I will move on with my life, look ahead and walk down this road. I won't turn back no more. It's all history between us. Everyone keep telling me there are many fishes in the sea and I am the swimmer.

Bro,thanks for helping me see the light. Its good that I realised now and not later on.

Diana, Zai, Lia and Deine - Thank you for keeping me stable through this entire shift today and preventing me from going through a breakdown.

Tomorrow is a new day,I am gonna make the most out of it.

Night night people!

Feeling dejected and down

Lately,work has been a little haywire. Don't know if i am down on my luck or this is the test for me to make decisions. Then I started to recall the project that Fad handled to me and thought about all the different options I offered the guest hypothetically. Then I realised that there's no right or wrong in decision-making. Its the matter of balancing the decision you make participates in the welfare of the guest and the service provider.Sometimes,you can't please both parties but you gotta do what a guest services executive would do which is to be professional even if you have to offend the guest indirectly. Communication between the guest and your colleagues is very important,its best to clarify everything first hand or the message won't be sent the way its supposed to be. Product knowledge has to be world-class for the benefit of yourself where you will be at the losing end of the straw by knowing little.

You don't seem to care about me no more even when i tell you that i have been feeling stressed at work and need you even just to hear your voice will help me feel better. No messages,no calls from you. Not even a missed call to show that you care just a bit.After all we been through, you just wanna throw this all away? You said that we can be friends even if we go our separate ways,but why is it that you have now treated me like a complete stranger? Do I not even exist as an acquaintance in your life anymore?

It's over

Its all over now. I should have seen this coming. We ended on good terms,still being good friends. Right now,its hard to let go of you, I can't even bear to take out our ring. Everything is still in a blank,I don't know why I agreed to the separation but I do know that I don't want you to be unhappy. No matter what, my heart is always open for you. You said,'we will see what the future holds'. I will hang on to that hope even if I have to let go of all other hopes in us. Its so weird, I hear your voice every night before I sleep, now I can only imagine hearing your voice. Loving you was my favourite hobby and it still is. I know it always will be.

I learned 2 things today. The hardest thing to do is to let go and the fairest thing is time. To let go of the past is like abandoning your memories and Time will tell when your wounds heal or sinks deeper.

Feeling Better

Today,you told me that you love me. That was more than enough to shut my mind and open up my heart. You didn't just say it, but you said it with affections and feelings. We've been together for more than 2 years,I should stop being so paranoid that you might dump me one day or just leave me high and dry. When we went to watch mamma mia the other day, I knew that the eyes I looked at were the same 2 years back..And again on my birthday, the little things you do makes me so happy and overjoyed! That's enough for me to know that my birthday wish did came true..

Thoughts

Knowing someone for like 2 weeks and you're already sharing one of the deepest secrets with him. I thought the secret you shared was quite personal and confidential that only close friends and family knew. I guess routines have changed and this a whole new level. What if,this secret backfires on you? would you regret it for sharing something so important with that stranger?
I will be going elsewhere for 15 weeks very soon and all i can think about is whether or not you will be waiting for me. Right now, my heart is telling me that our love will go on but my mind is telling me to not be a useless moron in love.I don't know what will go on through this 15 weeks,whether i get dumped or not,i have no idea but i made a wish for my birthday and I hope that God will grant it because its not for greed.

Frustrated

how the fuck am i supposed to feel? talking about another guy and saying you can talk with him continuously and being in contact with him every day and every minute you get the chance to see him.can you blame me for being silent throughout our conversation and then get blamed for not talking to you enough?can you blame me for being jealous after the way you described so enthusiastically and excitedly about him?you think i can actually handle these words and feelings coming out of my girlfriend's mouth?some will tell me that i am being over-sensitive while others will tell me this is life and that i gotta accept it somehow.