Better than ever!

Well, time to update! Everything is back to normal and its better than ever. I am so glad I got you back because its been a terrible 1 month. Just to hold you back in my arms again felt so damn good, I don't wanna let you go again. After the separation and back in love, we are so much closer than before,more in love than ever! hehe..

Finally, my last day of work. I learnt alot of things there but most importantly,i don't have to take in anymore crap from a certain individual. It was a living hell yet a memorable experience.

A World Unravelled

The other day, I made a huge mistake. I agreed to go Kushin-bo with Lia and Rihanna. I didn't realize that the little I ate would cost up to $50. My goodness gracious me! And Kushin-bo have the weirdest queue up for something special. whenever the song came out, "1-2-Kushin-bo, 3-4-Kushin-bo", Everyone had to go and queue up because it was limited and its an expensive platter each round. I was lucky to get the big mayo prawn, Now that was SUPER yummy! Then, the 3 of us went to toys 'r' us and bought for Rihanna the So soft Newborn like I promised her. We also bought some other games for our upcoming chalet and water guns,hehe! Being in toy 'r' us, I felt like the little boy in me was replenished. Will go back there again to get a couple of items for myself... Kidding!...

In work, Des and I are now buddies inseparable. And I am back to working with Wonder Woman again,really fun! hehe.. My last day of work is getting closer, infact, time really flies when you enjoy your time. I will be working with Des and Wonder Woman tomorrow, hopefully everything will be smooth and steady.

Life's been great to me helping me move on. I am thankful that things happened earlier so I can see the big picture clearly otherwise I will be damning myself for not realizing things sooner.

I need to really meet up with my lovelies and pals otherwise I won't get the chance when my booking in date gets near,hehe..

Gonna go sleep now, am super tired and I gotta start work in 5.5 hours! Feeling hungry..

Clearer, Lighter, Better, Fresher

Wasn't looking forward to meeting up with you coz my instincts told me that you would ask for a patch-up. When I reached there, I was already regretting my decision for agreeing to meet you. Kept on emphasizing on why I agreed, I just didn't wanna tell you that if you were to ask for a patch, I would have told you 'no'. But it happened anyway. Then it escalated into the topic of friendship which you clearly said that friends bewteen us ain't possible. You got all hostile in a minute and said why I am still doing here. I was like, ok fine, I will leave. And I did. Afterwards in the train station, you just only realized how bad you left things and said, 'So I hurt you pretty bad huh?' What do you think? Anyways, the past is the past, I would rather leave it behind where it truly belongs than to ponder over it. "Smoking, drinking, clubbing, making your friends worry. that's the life you're happy with?" For 1, that is my damn business. And 2, I am not a smoker, it was 1 mere cigarette which I couldn't tarik. Drinking was only occasionally and I don't like going clubbing, as I said before, I am more of a chillout bar with some close friends kinda guy. Then again, a little fling or 2 with some girls ain't so bad. As for making my friends worry, I personally feel I have explained to them about everything they have felt worry for me. Then, you wanted me to stay. I told you, its not such a good idea and I still won't change my answer. If I had to, I would leave our memories behind and create new ones. I am thankful for 2 years of beautiful memories but all old things must pass. I want a new life, a new Edwin Alexander Gordon. 1 who can depend on himself emotionally. I believe when I enter army, I will end everything with us once and for all but on good terms. No hard feelings. 2 years, a whole new life. I can't wait to embark on a new journey! Now I am gonna spend every minute worth spending with my Beloved NMH colleagues with drinking and partying alongside, my few close friends for dinner or supper. I really gotta start scheduling meet-ups with my lovelies before I book-in.hehe.My toilet queen will be first priority! hehe..

Cheers to everyone! and thanks to those keeping me strong once again! Love you all...as friend,haha!

Happy-ness!

Life's been great. Work is great! I am working with ma beloved buddy desmond 4 days in a row then straight with my lovely Rihanna. I met up with my 2 besties and 3 other friends today for dinner. We went to Magic Wok at city hall.Food was awesome! Thai-chinese Halal cuisine. We ate Black pepper beef, wonton soup, brocolli with mushroom, fried olive rice and cereal prawns. Splendid yet unfulfilling. It didn't keep us full. Although I did enjoy the company, finally meeting up with Syah, Khim and Aini after a super long time. Along with Win and Jessie who were having a rough day. We had a chat about some stuff and I realized, I am no longer affected by what she says or does anymore. When I first head some personal news about her, I was like, "what the hell is she thinking". Then after that, nothing. Wala - in filipino! hehe. Now, Rihanna's words come like a perfect fitting puzzle to me. The fairest thing in the world is time and only time can heal all wounds. A long chat with my bro helped me discover myself more prompt and alert towards life. Happiness can happen in many ways, not just love. My friends keep asking me. Do I still love her?I am in a better place right now. I don't yearn for her anymore, I appreciate the other factors in my life that do matter. Love comes and goes, which is why time plays a part in this.

Today's a nice day! My Wonder Woman, Filipino Batman and Rihanna stayed back just to keep Dessy and I company until 3am. So sweet of you guys! First they went to the bar and Rihanna drink like crazy up to 5 different concussions.hehe. Then I see her so high and mabok like she's walking on a circus rope. We chat and laugh whilst making fun of Des a.k.a tooth fairy. Ordered food - Fishball soup and Prata. Lovely! 2 walk-in RSVS last minute, Dessy and I got our own income/ He made $20 and I made $21.25. Nice! Other than that, it was fun spending time together. The closeness, the atmosphere, totally worth it. Almost 2 hours of time well-spent. Then they went on home..Sob sob, party's over.. I feel good about blogging today,hehe..

Insomnia - Feelings

Suffering from insomnia right now.. I can't sleep. Thinking about stuff. But worst of all, feeling quite dejected. For the first 3 months of my attachment in NMH, I couldn't wait to leave. I was practically counting down to my last day on 05/12. But when it came close, I was enjoying myself too much to care if I am ever to leave NMH or not. I work with a great load of people at the front desk, we are like an inseparable bunch. Now I am wishing that each second will feel like 1 minute so I can enjoy every moment spent with each of them. Already thinking of all the gifts I am gonna buy for them so I am gonna be super broke at the end of the month.hehe.

At times, it feels like torture working there. You can't wait for it to end so the day gets closer. You just wanna be done with it and drift away so you won't have to get yourself affected in any way. You wouldn't want to go down that road again after how things turned out. More like giving yourself a breath of fresh air first before taking a swim through the ocean again. The swimmer in the ocean gets all the attention from the fishes in the deep blue sea. Sometimes, things doesn't go your way. Just want to be silent about it because silence sometimes works out for the best. Never know, in a few years, it might happen. But now is not the right time. Friends give you encouragement and advice. All you want to do is be okay with everything when you end your journey there for the time being. Going with the flow, taking it easy, give yourself a chill. When you get excited about something, its kinda difficult to calm yourself or pretend like you don't care at all. People read you like a window, you can't hide your feelings especially when its that obvious. All you can do is deny but you know what they say is true because you do feel it. That's why its torture, you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time. But, speaking of fate. You were at the right place at the right time. When it all ended, something came along. You didn't dismiss it, you cherished it. Those first few seconds, you could tell feelings would last. Coincidence or Fate? You don't wish to know for you know that you have overdone things which you should have left it as they are. You wanna get rid of the past and embrace the present but the present will end pretty soon. These last few weeks are is got you got to enjoy every second you have. You never thought something new would come along and you just want time to freeze. Just to look at the magnificent picture in reality, to see things in slow motion but all you can do is imagine it slowly in your mind,in your heart.

I think I have said quite enough for now. Cheers!

Multi language counts alot

Everything today was very hectic. Pdp and I were sick so Des had to run desk from 3 - 8pm. After Des left, Pdp and I had to deal with 5 mass check in all at 1 go. There were so many faults with our phone line and lots of guests requests. But we managed to scrape through. a good thing we managed to handover fast or else it would be another self claim from self taxi fare,hehe. I am also also half drunk right now whilst typing this blog.hehe. 

Talking to Jon about personal stuff feels so good!! and Zai's advice is heaven. Its like they are my 2 guardian angels helping me through this difficult time. And Rihanna,the balance of my life,hehe.. There are things that we shouldn't overdo and things we should just leave it as it is. Maybe I need to stop blogging for awhile,it seems all I do is really confide in my online diary and not rely on my friends for a listening ear and sarcastic comments to cheer me up.

Ok! I want to order my Char Kway Teow without pork and oysters now! hehe..I am taking life too seriously, I should learn to grasp the true meaning of relaxation.

Working with Pdp and wonder woman tmr, only 4 check-ins so everything should proceed as smoothly.Ako magkulang sa pagtulog! Ciao ciao..

My first puff of cigarette

I had my first full stick of cigarette today. Marlboro menthol lights! It was great! It helped me to relieve of my troubles but I didn't feel good. I felt like I was forced but my body system liked it! hehe.. I am high right now while I am writing this entry. Feeling so guilty to all my friends who are there for me but I am drunk and high on nicotine,hehe..

Today was so much fun! Ran desk with Rihanna and wonder woman. Spent most of our time chatting and joking.hehe.. Day was spent totally worthwhile.Poor Rihanna, I accompanied her to the hospital after work and now on 2 days MC. The night is #402 was just occupied by the ambience of Des, Lia and I, with the 2 sergeants @ front desk with mama security. No Deineee and Diana to fill in with laughter and jokes.Sob sob..

I want to get drunk with my jager bomb,dumb dumb jon and zai don't want to follow me.. Humph Humph! hehe,kidding..

I hope this is my first and last full stick of cigarette. If i am not meant to tarik, I am not meant to do so. I shall not succumb myself to depression. There's a lot more to everything than meets the eye. I believe that I will pull myself up..

With Love always..Edwin Gordon at his present drunk and smoke high state,

Good night and many thanks for following up with my entry!Muacks Muacks Muacks people! hehehehehehe...