Wasn't looking forward to meeting up with you coz my instincts told me that you would ask for a patch-up. When I reached there, I was already regretting my decision for agreeing to meet you. Kept on emphasizing on why I agreed, I just didn't wanna tell you that if you were to ask for a patch, I would have told you 'no'. But it happened anyway. Then it escalated into the topic of friendship which you clearly said that friends bewteen us ain't possible. You got all hostile in a minute and said why I am still doing here. I was like, ok fine, I will leave. And I did. Afterwards in the train station, you just only realized how bad you left things and said, 'So I hurt you pretty bad huh?' What do you think? Anyways, the past is the past, I would rather leave it behind where it truly belongs than to ponder over it. "Smoking, drinking, clubbing, making your friends worry. that's the life you're happy with?" For 1, that is my damn business. And 2, I am not a smoker, it was 1 mere cigarette which I couldn't tarik. Drinking was only occasionally and I don't like going clubbing, as I said before, I am more of a chillout bar with some close friends kinda guy. Then again, a little fling or 2 with some girls ain't so bad. As for making my friends worry, I personally feel I have explained to them about everything they have felt worry for me. Then, you wanted me to stay. I told you, its not such a good idea and I still won't change my answer. If I had to, I would leave our memories behind and create new ones. I am thankful for 2 years of beautiful memories but all old things must pass. I want a new life, a new Edwin Alexander Gordon. 1 who can depend on himself emotionally. I believe when I enter army, I will end everything with us once and for all but on good terms. No hard feelings. 2 years, a whole new life. I can't wait to embark on a new journey! Now I am gonna spend every minute worth spending with my Beloved NMH colleagues with drinking and partying alongside, my few close friends for dinner or supper. I really gotta start scheduling meet-ups with my lovelies before I book-in.hehe.My toilet queen will be first priority! hehe..
Cheers to everyone! and thanks to those keeping me strong once again! Love you all...as friend,haha!
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I'm so proud that you made the choice which you rightfully should. Go on in life as you should, and remember, appreciate only those who appreciates you.
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