My first puff of cigarette

I had my first full stick of cigarette today. Marlboro menthol lights! It was great! It helped me to relieve of my troubles but I didn't feel good. I felt like I was forced but my body system liked it! hehe.. I am high right now while I am writing this entry. Feeling so guilty to all my friends who are there for me but I am drunk and high on nicotine,hehe..

Today was so much fun! Ran desk with Rihanna and wonder woman. Spent most of our time chatting and joking.hehe.. Day was spent totally worthwhile.Poor Rihanna, I accompanied her to the hospital after work and now on 2 days MC. The night is #402 was just occupied by the ambience of Des, Lia and I, with the 2 sergeants @ front desk with mama security. No Deineee and Diana to fill in with laughter and jokes.Sob sob..

I want to get drunk with my jager bomb,dumb dumb jon and zai don't want to follow me.. Humph Humph! hehe,kidding..

I hope this is my first and last full stick of cigarette. If i am not meant to tarik, I am not meant to do so. I shall not succumb myself to depression. There's a lot more to everything than meets the eye. I believe that I will pull myself up..

With Love always..Edwin Gordon at his present drunk and smoke high state,

Good night and many thanks for following up with my entry!Muacks Muacks Muacks people! hehehehehehe...