Well, time to update! Everything is back to normal and its better than ever. I am so glad I got you back because its been a terrible 1 month. Just to hold you back in my arms again felt so damn good, I don't wanna let you go again. After the separation and back in love, we are so much closer than before,more in love than ever! hehe..
Finally, my last day of work. I learnt alot of things there but most importantly,i don't have to take in anymore crap from a certain individual. It was a living hell yet a memorable experience.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
A World Unravelled
The other day, I made a huge mistake. I agreed to go Kushin-bo with Lia and Rihanna. I didn't realize that the little I ate would cost up to $50. My goodness gracious me! And Kushin-bo have the weirdest queue up for something special. whenever the song came out, "1-2-Kushin-bo, 3-4-Kushin-bo", Everyone had to go and queue up because it was limited and its an expensive platter each round. I was lucky to get the big mayo prawn, Now that was SUPER yummy! Then, the 3 of us went to toys 'r' us and bought for Rihanna the So soft Newborn like I promised her. We also bought some other games for our upcoming chalet and water guns,hehe! Being in toy 'r' us, I felt like the little boy in me was replenished. Will go back there again to get a couple of items for myself... Kidding!...
In work, Des and I are now buddies inseparable. And I am back to working with Wonder Woman again,really fun! hehe.. My last day of work is getting closer, infact, time really flies when you enjoy your time. I will be working with Des and Wonder Woman tomorrow, hopefully everything will be smooth and steady.
Life's been great to me helping me move on. I am thankful that things happened earlier so I can see the big picture clearly otherwise I will be damning myself for not realizing things sooner.
I need to really meet up with my lovelies and pals otherwise I won't get the chance when my booking in date gets near,hehe..
Gonna go sleep now, am super tired and I gotta start work in 5.5 hours! Feeling hungry..
In work, Des and I are now buddies inseparable. And I am back to working with Wonder Woman again,really fun! hehe.. My last day of work is getting closer, infact, time really flies when you enjoy your time. I will be working with Des and Wonder Woman tomorrow, hopefully everything will be smooth and steady.
Life's been great to me helping me move on. I am thankful that things happened earlier so I can see the big picture clearly otherwise I will be damning myself for not realizing things sooner.
I need to really meet up with my lovelies and pals otherwise I won't get the chance when my booking in date gets near,hehe..
Gonna go sleep now, am super tired and I gotta start work in 5.5 hours! Feeling hungry..
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Clearer, Lighter, Better, Fresher
Wasn't looking forward to meeting up with you coz my instincts told me that you would ask for a patch-up. When I reached there, I was already regretting my decision for agreeing to meet you. Kept on emphasizing on why I agreed, I just didn't wanna tell you that if you were to ask for a patch, I would have told you 'no'. But it happened anyway. Then it escalated into the topic of friendship which you clearly said that friends bewteen us ain't possible. You got all hostile in a minute and said why I am still doing here. I was like, ok fine, I will leave. And I did. Afterwards in the train station, you just only realized how bad you left things and said, 'So I hurt you pretty bad huh?' What do you think? Anyways, the past is the past, I would rather leave it behind where it truly belongs than to ponder over it. "Smoking, drinking, clubbing, making your friends worry. that's the life you're happy with?" For 1, that is my damn business. And 2, I am not a smoker, it was 1 mere cigarette which I couldn't tarik. Drinking was only occasionally and I don't like going clubbing, as I said before, I am more of a chillout bar with some close friends kinda guy. Then again, a little fling or 2 with some girls ain't so bad. As for making my friends worry, I personally feel I have explained to them about everything they have felt worry for me. Then, you wanted me to stay. I told you, its not such a good idea and I still won't change my answer. If I had to, I would leave our memories behind and create new ones. I am thankful for 2 years of beautiful memories but all old things must pass. I want a new life, a new Edwin Alexander Gordon. 1 who can depend on himself emotionally. I believe when I enter army, I will end everything with us once and for all but on good terms. No hard feelings. 2 years, a whole new life. I can't wait to embark on a new journey! Now I am gonna spend every minute worth spending with my Beloved NMH colleagues with drinking and partying alongside, my few close friends for dinner or supper. I really gotta start scheduling meet-ups with my lovelies before I book-in.hehe.My toilet queen will be first priority! hehe..
Cheers to everyone! and thanks to those keeping me strong once again! Love you all...as friend,haha!
Cheers to everyone! and thanks to those keeping me strong once again! Love you all...as friend,haha!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Happy-ness!
Life's been great. Work is great! I am working with ma beloved buddy desmond 4 days in a row then straight with my lovely Rihanna. I met up with my 2 besties and 3 other friends today for dinner. We went to Magic Wok at city hall.Food was awesome! Thai-chinese Halal cuisine. We ate Black pepper beef, wonton soup, brocolli with mushroom, fried olive rice and cereal prawns. Splendid yet unfulfilling. It didn't keep us full. Although I did enjoy the company, finally meeting up with Syah, Khim and Aini after a super long time. Along with Win and Jessie who were having a rough day. We had a chat about some stuff and I realized, I am no longer affected by what she says or does anymore. When I first head some personal news about her, I was like, "what the hell is she thinking". Then after that, nothing. Wala - in filipino! hehe. Now, Rihanna's words come like a perfect fitting puzzle to me. The fairest thing in the world is time and only time can heal all wounds. A long chat with my bro helped me discover myself more prompt and alert towards life. Happiness can happen in many ways, not just love. My friends keep asking me. Do I still love her?I am in a better place right now. I don't yearn for her anymore, I appreciate the other factors in my life that do matter. Love comes and goes, which is why time plays a part in this.
Today's a nice day! My Wonder Woman, Filipino Batman and Rihanna stayed back just to keep Dessy and I company until 3am. So sweet of you guys! First they went to the bar and Rihanna drink like crazy up to 5 different concussions.hehe. Then I see her so high and mabok like she's walking on a circus rope. We chat and laugh whilst making fun of Des a.k.a tooth fairy. Ordered food - Fishball soup and Prata. Lovely! 2 walk-in RSVS last minute, Dessy and I got our own income/ He made $20 and I made $21.25. Nice! Other than that, it was fun spending time together. The closeness, the atmosphere, totally worth it. Almost 2 hours of time well-spent. Then they went on home..Sob sob, party's over.. I feel good about blogging today,hehe..
Today's a nice day! My Wonder Woman, Filipino Batman and Rihanna stayed back just to keep Dessy and I company until 3am. So sweet of you guys! First they went to the bar and Rihanna drink like crazy up to 5 different concussions.hehe. Then I see her so high and mabok like she's walking on a circus rope. We chat and laugh whilst making fun of Des a.k.a tooth fairy. Ordered food - Fishball soup and Prata. Lovely! 2 walk-in RSVS last minute, Dessy and I got our own income/ He made $20 and I made $21.25. Nice! Other than that, it was fun spending time together. The closeness, the atmosphere, totally worth it. Almost 2 hours of time well-spent. Then they went on home..Sob sob, party's over.. I feel good about blogging today,hehe..
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Insomnia - Feelings
Suffering from insomnia right now.. I can't sleep. Thinking about stuff. But worst of all, feeling quite dejected. For the first 3 months of my attachment in NMH, I couldn't wait to leave. I was practically counting down to my last day on 05/12. But when it came close, I was enjoying myself too much to care if I am ever to leave NMH or not. I work with a great load of people at the front desk, we are like an inseparable bunch. Now I am wishing that each second will feel like 1 minute so I can enjoy every moment spent with each of them. Already thinking of all the gifts I am gonna buy for them so I am gonna be super broke at the end of the month.hehe.
At times, it feels like torture working there. You can't wait for it to end so the day gets closer. You just wanna be done with it and drift away so you won't have to get yourself affected in any way. You wouldn't want to go down that road again after how things turned out. More like giving yourself a breath of fresh air first before taking a swim through the ocean again. The swimmer in the ocean gets all the attention from the fishes in the deep blue sea. Sometimes, things doesn't go your way. Just want to be silent about it because silence sometimes works out for the best. Never know, in a few years, it might happen. But now is not the right time. Friends give you encouragement and advice. All you want to do is be okay with everything when you end your journey there for the time being. Going with the flow, taking it easy, give yourself a chill. When you get excited about something, its kinda difficult to calm yourself or pretend like you don't care at all. People read you like a window, you can't hide your feelings especially when its that obvious. All you can do is deny but you know what they say is true because you do feel it. That's why its torture, you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time. But, speaking of fate. You were at the right place at the right time. When it all ended, something came along. You didn't dismiss it, you cherished it. Those first few seconds, you could tell feelings would last. Coincidence or Fate? You don't wish to know for you know that you have overdone things which you should have left it as they are. You wanna get rid of the past and embrace the present but the present will end pretty soon. These last few weeks are is got you got to enjoy every second you have. You never thought something new would come along and you just want time to freeze. Just to look at the magnificent picture in reality, to see things in slow motion but all you can do is imagine it slowly in your mind,in your heart.
I think I have said quite enough for now. Cheers!
At times, it feels like torture working there. You can't wait for it to end so the day gets closer. You just wanna be done with it and drift away so you won't have to get yourself affected in any way. You wouldn't want to go down that road again after how things turned out. More like giving yourself a breath of fresh air first before taking a swim through the ocean again. The swimmer in the ocean gets all the attention from the fishes in the deep blue sea. Sometimes, things doesn't go your way. Just want to be silent about it because silence sometimes works out for the best. Never know, in a few years, it might happen. But now is not the right time. Friends give you encouragement and advice. All you want to do is be okay with everything when you end your journey there for the time being. Going with the flow, taking it easy, give yourself a chill. When you get excited about something, its kinda difficult to calm yourself or pretend like you don't care at all. People read you like a window, you can't hide your feelings especially when its that obvious. All you can do is deny but you know what they say is true because you do feel it. That's why its torture, you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time. But, speaking of fate. You were at the right place at the right time. When it all ended, something came along. You didn't dismiss it, you cherished it. Those first few seconds, you could tell feelings would last. Coincidence or Fate? You don't wish to know for you know that you have overdone things which you should have left it as they are. You wanna get rid of the past and embrace the present but the present will end pretty soon. These last few weeks are is got you got to enjoy every second you have. You never thought something new would come along and you just want time to freeze. Just to look at the magnificent picture in reality, to see things in slow motion but all you can do is imagine it slowly in your mind,in your heart.
I think I have said quite enough for now. Cheers!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Multi language counts alot
Everything today was very hectic. Pdp and I were sick so Des had to run desk from 3 - 8pm. After Des left, Pdp and I had to deal with 5 mass check in all at 1 go. There were so many faults with our phone line and lots of guests requests. But we managed to scrape through. a good thing we managed to handover fast or else it would be another self claim from self taxi fare,hehe. I am also also half drunk right now whilst typing this blog.hehe.
Talking to Jon about personal stuff feels so good!! and Zai's advice is heaven. Its like they are my 2 guardian angels helping me through this difficult time. And Rihanna,the balance of my life,hehe.. There are things that we shouldn't overdo and things we should just leave it as it is. Maybe I need to stop blogging for awhile,it seems all I do is really confide in my online diary and not rely on my friends for a listening ear and sarcastic comments to cheer me up.
Ok! I want to order my Char Kway Teow without pork and oysters now! hehe..I am taking life too seriously, I should learn to grasp the true meaning of relaxation.
Working with Pdp and wonder woman tmr, only 4 check-ins so everything should proceed as smoothly.Ako magkulang sa pagtulog! Ciao ciao..
Sunday, November 2, 2008
My first puff of cigarette
I had my first full stick of cigarette today. Marlboro menthol lights! It was great! It helped me to relieve of my troubles but I didn't feel good. I felt like I was forced but my body system liked it! hehe.. I am high right now while I am writing this entry. Feeling so guilty to all my friends who are there for me but I am drunk and high on nicotine,hehe..
Today was so much fun! Ran desk with Rihanna and wonder woman. Spent most of our time chatting and joking.hehe.. Day was spent totally worthwhile.Poor Rihanna, I accompanied her to the hospital after work and now on 2 days MC. The night is #402 was just occupied by the ambience of Des, Lia and I, with the 2 sergeants @ front desk with mama security. No Deineee and Diana to fill in with laughter and jokes.Sob sob..
I want to get drunk with my jager bomb,dumb dumb jon and zai don't want to follow me.. Humph Humph! hehe,kidding..
I hope this is my first and last full stick of cigarette. If i am not meant to tarik, I am not meant to do so. I shall not succumb myself to depression. There's a lot more to everything than meets the eye. I believe that I will pull myself up..
With Love always..Edwin Gordon at his present drunk and smoke high state,
Good night and many thanks for following up with my entry!Muacks Muacks Muacks people! hehehehehehe...
Friday, October 31, 2008
A twist of events
Was on a fantastic 4 era yesterday with only 2 arrivals. Anku, Zai, Wonder Woman and I. Ended up cleaning the front desk and back office, preparing more key card jackets, replenishing miscellaneous forms and scolding alongside communicating with each other in filipino. It's such a fun day! At least, we managed to make time pass.
After work, Zai had to go home sleep because he had a date with fad 10 hours later & My Wonder Woman had a Halloween party to attend to. I was so surprised that Shazzie actually made her way to the hotel without my help,haha. such a smart girl! As Majestic bar was full, we ended up going to thai disco at golden mile complex. After being there with all the music, the dancers, the hostess, the ambience, that kind of enjoyment is not my cup of tea. Above all, I still prefer the irish pub over at Marina square like Jon recommended. Quiet, relaxing, just a typical chillout corner to drink and chat with your friends. Very fulfilling. And I still miss my Jager Bomb people! next time we have it, be sure to mix it on my behalf,haha! Around 1 plus, I was absolutely tired, Shazzie made her way to meet Jason at Clarke Quay and I went on home. I reached home just in time to take a hot shower and lie on my bed to snore and sleep like a chubby teddy bear. Feeling very tired now! Stay tuned for my next entry people! Its gonna be Super END tmr!
After work, Zai had to go home sleep because he had a date with fad 10 hours later & My Wonder Woman had a Halloween party to attend to. I was so surprised that Shazzie actually made her way to the hotel without my help,haha. such a smart girl! As Majestic bar was full, we ended up going to thai disco at golden mile complex. After being there with all the music, the dancers, the hostess, the ambience, that kind of enjoyment is not my cup of tea. Above all, I still prefer the irish pub over at Marina square like Jon recommended. Quiet, relaxing, just a typical chillout corner to drink and chat with your friends. Very fulfilling. And I still miss my Jager Bomb people! next time we have it, be sure to mix it on my behalf,haha! Around 1 plus, I was absolutely tired, Shazzie made her way to meet Jason at Clarke Quay and I went on home. I reached home just in time to take a hot shower and lie on my bed to snore and sleep like a chubby teddy bear. Feeling very tired now! Stay tuned for my next entry people! Its gonna be Super END tmr!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Edwin
I realized the meaning of my name - Edwin. It means 'A friendly spirit'. A friend closer than a brother. Am I a good friend? Lately, all my friends have been there for me but I don't seem to have any strength to be there for them,so I guess I don't qualify to be a friendly spirit no more. There are ups and downs in all aspects,you can't possibly please them all.
Met up with Phebe today. After ages of dating each other out,this date finally got through. I miss this best friend so bloody much! Love talking to you and your company babe..Great supper outing,waiting for our movie date! hehe..
Finally my filipino batman is back at work! I wanna go get another pint of erdinger white and jager bomb! 10 jager bombs bro! haha..
Met up with Phebe today. After ages of dating each other out,this date finally got through. I miss this best friend so bloody much! Love talking to you and your company babe..Great supper outing,waiting for our movie date! hehe..
Finally my filipino batman is back at work! I wanna go get another pint of erdinger white and jager bomb! 10 jager bombs bro! haha..
Love Quotes
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.
Dedicate your life to God, though choose carefully who you dedicate your love to.
Some say love is life, but love without hope and faith is an agonizing death.
All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.
Could you love without having to give a reason?
Could you hate without having to tell the truth?
Could you recover from a wound so deep and fall in love again?
Could you really forget your past and live for the present?
Could you say you have hope and faith out loud when actually you don't?
Could you turn back time so you can make things better?
Could you be someone you're not?
God works in mysterious ways, why can't love be the same as well?
If you're destined to be alone,would you be able to take it?
If the truth was told,could you still treat the person the same way?
If you knew what lies ahead of you, would you do everything in your power to prevent it even if you're destined not to do anything about it?
Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.
Dedicate your life to God, though choose carefully who you dedicate your love to.
Some say love is life, but love without hope and faith is an agonizing death.
All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.
Could you love without having to give a reason?
Could you hate without having to tell the truth?
Could you recover from a wound so deep and fall in love again?
Could you really forget your past and live for the present?
Could you say you have hope and faith out loud when actually you don't?
Could you turn back time so you can make things better?
Could you be someone you're not?
God works in mysterious ways, why can't love be the same as well?
If you're destined to be alone,would you be able to take it?
If the truth was told,could you still treat the person the same way?
If you knew what lies ahead of you, would you do everything in your power to prevent it even if you're destined not to do anything about it?
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I don't know
When I'm high and tipsy, I can't control my mind. Flashes of you keep popping in my head. Everything I do, everywhere I walk, everyone I talk to, It's like I'm ....... I don't know the end of this sentence but I know it doesn't end well.I just wanna lose my memories. Its painful and now its affecting my self-consciousness. I will probably wake up one day and find myself drifted out at sea.
My Nepalese Flash and Singaporean Ah Beng now doing night shift. Hopefully,this time, they will remember my wake up call.Night Night!
I am sad! Fucking sad!
My Nepalese Flash and Singaporean Ah Beng now doing night shift. Hopefully,this time, they will remember my wake up call.Night Night!
I am sad! Fucking sad!
Monday, October 27, 2008
Running desk with Rihanna
Well,I am running desk with my beloved Rihanna today. With SuperLia coming later at 9 for meeting with MGNT.Now I miss my Wonder Woman..3 departures and 7 arrivals. Yippy! I ordered curry chicken rice for breakfast but I am gonna buy donuts later! Yummy yummy yummy, I've got love in my tummy!
20 mins later.. Oh my goodnes gracious me! The curry chicken rice is super duper spicy! I should have asked for less chilli. Rihanna is now worried that I will pollute her fresh air with my nice-smelling ass. So many maintenance personnel to call today. Ok, I will end up throwing away half of my breakfast. I can feel my stomach and ass exploding already. Oh Mampos! For updates, pls stay tuned! See ya..
20 mins later.. Oh my goodnes gracious me! The curry chicken rice is super duper spicy! I should have asked for less chilli. Rihanna is now worried that I will pollute her fresh air with my nice-smelling ass. So many maintenance personnel to call today. Ok, I will end up throwing away half of my breakfast. I can feel my stomach and ass exploding already. Oh Mampos! For updates, pls stay tuned! See ya..
Sleepy Sleepy!
I feel so sleepy. I only slept for less than 4 hours last night. I feel fine emotionally,why do I still feel so lethargic?I feel stable but its hard to sleep at night, Maybe I am not used to things yet. Uzairi! Better be more sarcastic with me so I will feel more at home..I miss the company of my Filipino Batman and my Thai Late God.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Standard B
Today's like any other standard B Shift. With Lia and Super Trainee Anku, I can just sit down and shake legs. haha. Kidding. There was not that many check in but 1 annoying party room. So instead of guest services executives, we were policemen and hotel bouncers. Had to make sure that the capacity of the room is under control and the noise level is within limits. The good thing is,most of the check-ins were done @ 1500 hrs sharp,even before handover was complete. And just because of one comment I made, Diana and Pam have joined Lia and Zai in teasing me. Good work People! making me more malu ah?haha,I will get back at you guys 1 day.hehe. You never know guys,my ass shows no mercy even if you put a cork in it. Gonna take Diana and Pam for my beloved Grandma's fortune-telling next sunday before END take charge. Edwin, Nurdiana & Deine! Super END to the rescue!hehe..
Today's much better for me..I am beginning to the appreciate the smaller things in life and concentrate on the big picture. Leave the unhappy past behind and focus on Happiness! So proud of me!
NMH Staff reading my blog- Better comment on my tagboard or "Our Friendship is ....!" Well,you know how this sentence ends,haha! Ciao people, stay tuned for my next entry!
Today's much better for me..I am beginning to the appreciate the smaller things in life and concentrate on the big picture. Leave the unhappy past behind and focus on Happiness! So proud of me!
NMH Staff reading my blog- Better comment on my tagboard or "Our Friendship is ....!" Well,you know how this sentence ends,haha! Ciao people, stay tuned for my next entry!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Happy
Woke up and decided to go through the stuff that was thrown in my face. I spent 30 mins to look through it and I have put it behind me.They're all history.. I know that being at work will help me not to think about stuff so I went there super early and ended up having lunch with Zai and Deine. We had burger king. Lovely & Delicious! I treat them to a hershey's sundae pie each. Then at work, Zai and Lia keep making indirect jokes about Deine and I,very naughty people.. So "our friendship is over!" haha,just kidding..
Work was messy, we very rarely had 1 check-in at a time, it was mostly mass check-on at one go to the point that Zai, Deine ( who are in training) and Jasmine from 1929 actually helped out. It was fun yet in order as well. Then, Lia and I had a little conflict in between. But we managed to work things out. I joined Ms Alison Carroll fan club and now Desmond says he's joining too..hehe!
Jon better wear a bomb suit for Zai's 1 on 1, but he better wear a terminator's body armour because its gonna be end-of-the-world 1 on 1 session with me.
Tomorrow is gonna be LAG. Super LAG! Lia, Anku & Gordon! haha,ok i am super lame right now. Night Night People! ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz.....
Work was messy, we very rarely had 1 check-in at a time, it was mostly mass check-on at one go to the point that Zai, Deine ( who are in training) and Jasmine from 1929 actually helped out. It was fun yet in order as well. Then, Lia and I had a little conflict in between. But we managed to work things out. I joined Ms Alison Carroll fan club and now Desmond says he's joining too..hehe!
Jon better wear a bomb suit for Zai's 1 on 1, but he better wear a terminator's body armour because its gonna be end-of-the-world 1 on 1 session with me.
Tomorrow is gonna be LAG. Super LAG! Lia, Anku & Gordon! haha,ok i am super lame right now. Night Night People! ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz.....
Friday, October 24, 2008
Hope for a new start
Today was rather a huge slap in the face. I could see the agony in my own bro when he had no choice but to give back all the things that I had given to you. Even the couple watch, the gifts, the hundreds of origami hearts which I folded for you. It all came flying back in my face. But that wasn't the disappointing part. To actually hear that you denied saying 'I love you' to me when you actually did on the day i sent you to work. And that you love everyone an equal amount like you love me so as to say its something like I love you as a friend. If thats what you have been feeling for these 2 years, then I guess you're right. I deserve better. You have changed so much,its so drastic that I wish I am dreaming right now. I guess I haven't been the man of your dreams,so I hope that whoever you find can give you the happiness that I couldn't give you. I will move on with my life, look ahead and walk down this road. I won't turn back no more. It's all history between us. Everyone keep telling me there are many fishes in the sea and I am the swimmer.
Bro,thanks for helping me see the light. Its good that I realised now and not later on.
Diana, Zai, Lia and Deine - Thank you for keeping me stable through this entire shift today and preventing me from going through a breakdown.
Tomorrow is a new day,I am gonna make the most out of it.
Night night people!
Bro,thanks for helping me see the light. Its good that I realised now and not later on.
Diana, Zai, Lia and Deine - Thank you for keeping me stable through this entire shift today and preventing me from going through a breakdown.
Tomorrow is a new day,I am gonna make the most out of it.
Night night people!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Feeling dejected and down
Lately,work has been a little haywire. Don't know if i am down on my luck or this is the test for me to make decisions. Then I started to recall the project that Fad handled to me and thought about all the different options I offered the guest hypothetically. Then I realised that there's no right or wrong in decision-making. Its the matter of balancing the decision you make participates in the welfare of the guest and the service provider.Sometimes,you can't please both parties but you gotta do what a guest services executive would do which is to be professional even if you have to offend the guest indirectly. Communication between the guest and your colleagues is very important,its best to clarify everything first hand or the message won't be sent the way its supposed to be. Product knowledge has to be world-class for the benefit of yourself where you will be at the losing end of the straw by knowing little.
You don't seem to care about me no more even when i tell you that i have been feeling stressed at work and need you even just to hear your voice will help me feel better. No messages,no calls from you. Not even a missed call to show that you care just a bit.After all we been through, you just wanna throw this all away? You said that we can be friends even if we go our separate ways,but why is it that you have now treated me like a complete stranger? Do I not even exist as an acquaintance in your life anymore?
You don't seem to care about me no more even when i tell you that i have been feeling stressed at work and need you even just to hear your voice will help me feel better. No messages,no calls from you. Not even a missed call to show that you care just a bit.After all we been through, you just wanna throw this all away? You said that we can be friends even if we go our separate ways,but why is it that you have now treated me like a complete stranger? Do I not even exist as an acquaintance in your life anymore?
Sunday, October 19, 2008
It's over
Its all over now. I should have seen this coming. We ended on good terms,still being good friends. Right now,its hard to let go of you, I can't even bear to take out our ring. Everything is still in a blank,I don't know why I agreed to the separation but I do know that I don't want you to be unhappy. No matter what, my heart is always open for you. You said,'we will see what the future holds'. I will hang on to that hope even if I have to let go of all other hopes in us. Its so weird, I hear your voice every night before I sleep, now I can only imagine hearing your voice. Loving you was my favourite hobby and it still is. I know it always will be.
I learned 2 things today. The hardest thing to do is to let go and the fairest thing is time. To let go of the past is like abandoning your memories and Time will tell when your wounds heal or sinks deeper.
I learned 2 things today. The hardest thing to do is to let go and the fairest thing is time. To let go of the past is like abandoning your memories and Time will tell when your wounds heal or sinks deeper.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Feeling Better
Today,you told me that you love me. That was more than enough to shut my mind and open up my heart. You didn't just say it, but you said it with affections and feelings. We've been together for more than 2 years,I should stop being so paranoid that you might dump me one day or just leave me high and dry. When we went to watch mamma mia the other day, I knew that the eyes I looked at were the same 2 years back..And again on my birthday, the little things you do makes me so happy and overjoyed! That's enough for me to know that my birthday wish did came true..
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Thoughts
Knowing someone for like 2 weeks and you're already sharing one of the deepest secrets with him. I thought the secret you shared was quite personal and confidential that only close friends and family knew. I guess routines have changed and this a whole new level. What if,this secret backfires on you? would you regret it for sharing something so important with that stranger?
I will be going elsewhere for 15 weeks very soon and all i can think about is whether or not you will be waiting for me. Right now, my heart is telling me that our love will go on but my mind is telling me to not be a useless moron in love.I don't know what will go on through this 15 weeks,whether i get dumped or not,i have no idea but i made a wish for my birthday and I hope that God will grant it because its not for greed.
I will be going elsewhere for 15 weeks very soon and all i can think about is whether or not you will be waiting for me. Right now, my heart is telling me that our love will go on but my mind is telling me to not be a useless moron in love.I don't know what will go on through this 15 weeks,whether i get dumped or not,i have no idea but i made a wish for my birthday and I hope that God will grant it because its not for greed.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Frustrated
how the fuck am i supposed to feel? talking about another guy and saying you can talk with him continuously and being in contact with him every day and every minute you get the chance to see him.can you blame me for being silent throughout our conversation and then get blamed for not talking to you enough?can you blame me for being jealous after the way you described so enthusiastically and excitedly about him?you think i can actually handle these words and feelings coming out of my girlfriend's mouth?some will tell me that i am being over-sensitive while others will tell me this is life and that i gotta accept it somehow.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
The moment of truth
For the past 2 months,I have been thinking that I could sign on full-time. Its been my dream to actually do so for the experience and the ambition. But it takes just one week for me to realize that I can't do it. I can't handle the stress that have been distracting me. It took just one shift for me to screw up many times. If I am asked to continue, I know exactly what I am gonna say if I don't wanna bring down the rest of the team along with me. Most of all, I would be disappointing myself. Just like Angelia said, the people that you hurt the most for the consequences of your actions are not your colleagues or your uplines but yourself. I will only hate myself more by doing what I don't want to do which is to fall down deeper. It will be difficult for me not to mix work with personal life coz that's what I have been doing for this week. Just in time for me to realize this just about 1 week before the end of my journey as a guest services executive. Its time to move on and take on a less risky job for the time being which is kinda unstable for me right now. This is the first time I am actually considering what's best for others and for me at the same time,so unexpected coming from me.Hooray for me! hehe..
Time for NS life..I guess that will conclude and put everything in perspective for me.I spent 2 years hoping and wishing that this day wouldn't come but I am actually heartbroken. Love songs everyday till I go crazy. Diana was right. She knew every feeling i was feeling. Forgetting every friend I have got just because I have lost my one true love. Punishing myself for my own sorrows and mistakes. Reliving each day till I lose all hope and love in life. Now i know why people actually run away instead of facing their fears. its for the weak. I am weak. My heart and soul have been drained out completely. I have myself to blame, I am a changed man. alot of people say I have a good heart but its not the same anymore. I believe its now I had a good heart and I am just not me anymore. Never thought I would actually arrive at this intersection. it leads to nowhere.
Time for NS life..I guess that will conclude and put everything in perspective for me.I spent 2 years hoping and wishing that this day wouldn't come but I am actually heartbroken. Love songs everyday till I go crazy. Diana was right. She knew every feeling i was feeling. Forgetting every friend I have got just because I have lost my one true love. Punishing myself for my own sorrows and mistakes. Reliving each day till I lose all hope and love in life. Now i know why people actually run away instead of facing their fears. its for the weak. I am weak. My heart and soul have been drained out completely. I have myself to blame, I am a changed man. alot of people say I have a good heart but its not the same anymore. I believe its now I had a good heart and I am just not me anymore. Never thought I would actually arrive at this intersection. it leads to nowhere.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Emptiness and Sorrow
I feel no tear in my eyes, no smile on my face. Only a ray of hope that I wake up one day knowing that this has all been a dream. I dream of you when I sleep,but its all just false hope because I wake up yearning for your touch and the cuteness of your voice. Without you, I feel nothing, nobody got the power to cheer me up or bring a smile to my face cept you baby.When I am stressed at work with my uplines giving me pressure, I look forward to chatting with you right before I sleep every night. Now the hopes have vanished and sooner or later, I know depression is waiting for my entrance.After you, I doubt I will have the power to love again. For the past 2 weeks, I miss you so much, For the past 1 week, I have been living in hell. your voice seems so cold, your words are hurtful when you talk to me with no feeling. I don't want tomorrow to come. because i know that with every second that passes,your love for me will fade. And with every second,my love for you grows deeper till I feel a stab in my heart.Ironically, my heart is gone yet I still feel pain. Even if its gonna be the end of us, couldn't you just dedicate one last day to me?Just wanna hug you and hold you. Coz I know that I won't get the chance to anymore. I will probably watch you from afar, that's the closest I will ever be to you. You still remember our song?now I feel it all makes sense but it wasn't happily ever after.I have lost myself to the world, you're right to say that I am not who I am anymore but I know for sure that I still love you as much as I did before. It has been the greatest 2 years of my life with you. We had our ups and downs and now you wanna throw it all away.For as long as my heart still chants your name, I will never throw,not even 1 bit of it away. You're way too precious to me. I can't stand not being with you.You'll always be my baby...Ma Icy Baby..
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
In awe of thee
Time check - Its 0424 hrs on 11/09/08 just after doing my night audit for NMH. Blogging for 3 reasons. 1) I have to keep up with life when it comes to my online diary.DUH! 2) I am bored doing night shift,YAWNS! 3) I had better update before Phebe continues to ignore me. haha.
A big thank you to Miss Florence for giving me the oppotunity to run desk and for the fact that I am sincerely considering wanting to sign on full time for at least 3 months if I don't enter NS till late Feb or March. At least with 3-4 months full time experience, I might be able to acquire the needed potential to work in sophisicated hotels such as Swissotel Merchant Court or Conrad Centenniel as a Front Office Agent. Enough about work, now it comes to my love life!
I have officially reached my 2 years peak of love with my precious baby! this has been the most exciting roller-coaster ride for an interesting 2 years of my life! Now,am gonna make it 3 and counting down to that.haha. I bought a $300 guess couple watch for us on our anniversary and she did so much more! I am speechless and my heart could literally cry like a 24-7 water fountain. A scrapbook with our photos for 2 years full of emotions and heart-felt words at every page. I feel like singing songs from Mohabbatein everytime I lay eyes on each precious wonderful word of love from our diary. And 2 weeks after our anniversary, a surprise chocolate cake at delifrance by some of the service staff there but made by my baby's friend whose pursuing an attachment at fullerton hotel as a baking chef trainee. That was such a freaking delicious chocolate cake which I actually felt full our 1 slice.Moving on over to my friendships..
Meeting Syahid is like a mixture of the sun and the moon. On days, I am free, he can't make. On days he is free, I have other plans. Only in an eclipse do we actually meet and have a decent dinner together.hehe. As for Winson, we have been double-dating every once in 2 weeks so meeting this guy is A-OK. And now to Phebe, Prata @ Adam's corner every once a week, I have gotten used to ordering Nasi Ayam Sambal Goreng everytime I go there for supper.hehe. We will end up eating that, prata and dinosaur for most of our visits there. I can pretty much paint the picture for my next trip there with her again.haha.
This is so far my blogging,for next episode, please convince me type another entry,if you can. Hahaha! Night Night, I have things to do now,Cheers!
A big thank you to Miss Florence for giving me the oppotunity to run desk and for the fact that I am sincerely considering wanting to sign on full time for at least 3 months if I don't enter NS till late Feb or March. At least with 3-4 months full time experience, I might be able to acquire the needed potential to work in sophisicated hotels such as Swissotel Merchant Court or Conrad Centenniel as a Front Office Agent. Enough about work, now it comes to my love life!
I have officially reached my 2 years peak of love with my precious baby! this has been the most exciting roller-coaster ride for an interesting 2 years of my life! Now,am gonna make it 3 and counting down to that.haha. I bought a $300 guess couple watch for us on our anniversary and she did so much more! I am speechless and my heart could literally cry like a 24-7 water fountain. A scrapbook with our photos for 2 years full of emotions and heart-felt words at every page. I feel like singing songs from Mohabbatein everytime I lay eyes on each precious wonderful word of love from our diary. And 2 weeks after our anniversary, a surprise chocolate cake at delifrance by some of the service staff there but made by my baby's friend whose pursuing an attachment at fullerton hotel as a baking chef trainee. That was such a freaking delicious chocolate cake which I actually felt full our 1 slice.Moving on over to my friendships..
Meeting Syahid is like a mixture of the sun and the moon. On days, I am free, he can't make. On days he is free, I have other plans. Only in an eclipse do we actually meet and have a decent dinner together.hehe. As for Winson, we have been double-dating every once in 2 weeks so meeting this guy is A-OK. And now to Phebe, Prata @ Adam's corner every once a week, I have gotten used to ordering Nasi Ayam Sambal Goreng everytime I go there for supper.hehe. We will end up eating that, prata and dinosaur for most of our visits there. I can pretty much paint the picture for my next trip there with her again.haha.
This is so far my blogging,for next episode, please convince me type another entry,if you can. Hahaha! Night Night, I have things to do now,Cheers!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Yo Yo Yo People
Hey People! I have a long blog entry to submit,haha. First off is work. I finally got my break from Front office and I start housekeeping tomorrow for 2 whole weeks,after so long I finally got my turn! Yippy! So proud of me, I have improved alot in my front office duties as compared to the start of my attachment, that's quite an achievement.Actually I am very tired, I will continue tmr with my next entry,ciao!
Monday, July 14, 2008
Back in Business
Well, I guess its been too long since I have been back here that my blog has gotten too rusty. I should say I am back by popular demand as many others have been begging for me to update my blog. lol.. The subject of work- everything is all right, just saddened by the fact that I have to be penalized double for every minute I am late for work. I respect that new scheme set for all late-comers,just feel like its gonna be a long week next week when the roster is set. Another 2 and a half months before my job is done, I can't wait for my housekeeping reign to come close.
My love life is awesome, 2 years of anniversary is coming very close, I can't wait to celebrate it and look forward to the 3 years. I wonder what I will have up my sleeves when the celebration comes. I will probably go broke with my next paycheck.
Having a good day today,meeting Cyrus for lunch at Charcoal at the same time,paying a visit to Melissa at work,then Janna tu Janna with Phebe at wherever they have the
movie at,haha.Gonna be working night shift from tomorrow till Sunday night, I will be cherishing it as I am in the stinking morning shift the following week.
Take care my peeps and wait for my next entry yeah?
See you soon and continue to tag on my tagboard,Cheers!
My love life is awesome, 2 years of anniversary is coming very close, I can't wait to celebrate it and look forward to the 3 years. I wonder what I will have up my sleeves when the celebration comes. I will probably go broke with my next paycheck.
Having a good day today,meeting Cyrus for lunch at Charcoal at the same time,paying a visit to Melissa at work,then Janna tu Janna with Phebe at wherever they have the
movie at,haha.Gonna be working night shift from tomorrow till Sunday night, I will be cherishing it as I am in the stinking morning shift the following week.
Take care my peeps and wait for my next entry yeah?
See you soon and continue to tag on my tagboard,Cheers!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Splendid day with my cuz
Finally hanged out with my lovely cousin manda for the first time in a long time. It was like experiencing the first day of snow on a winter long season.Every minute spent with her,I feel like I am in London all over again.Feels like meadow gardens.haha.
Picked her up in the morning to go for a movie at the grand cathay but due to jetlag,it was postponed to 2 hours later. Had a healthy nutritious subway for lunch followed by the movie " sex and the city'.For Auld Lang Syne..then dessert at Ben and Jerry's,shared the Belgian chocolate waffle.Delicious! Much too thick,now my throat feels worse but it was worth it. took turns treating each other one whole day.
Then ended up taking pictures back in grandma's house,at least some memories stored in data.haha. Was like washed-out from going to work but I went anyway,I wouldn't wanna get fired.Now i am counting down the hours to my punch-out so I can go home sweet home to sleep on my lovely bed.Time flies fast at work today. That's a great thing! haha,Night Night to all my faithful readers!
Picked her up in the morning to go for a movie at the grand cathay but due to jetlag,it was postponed to 2 hours later. Had a healthy nutritious subway for lunch followed by the movie " sex and the city'.For Auld Lang Syne..then dessert at Ben and Jerry's,shared the Belgian chocolate waffle.Delicious! Much too thick,now my throat feels worse but it was worth it. took turns treating each other one whole day.
Then ended up taking pictures back in grandma's house,at least some memories stored in data.haha. Was like washed-out from going to work but I went anyway,I wouldn't wanna get fired.Now i am counting down the hours to my punch-out so I can go home sweet home to sleep on my lovely bed.Time flies fast at work today. That's a great thing! haha,Night Night to all my faithful readers!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Delayed Post
Well I guess its an overdue post and my friends have been urging me to update. As of april, my first priority is my work of the attachment in NMH, its been a real long journey and its about to get longer.I gotta swallow my balls and be somebody I am not.thats what most people are doing to escape the truth. But I do it for a living.It came at a price for trying to be better at work by faking myself.A changed personality,becoming more sarcastic and cynical.Surprisingly,they all happened to me naturally.I am gonna take one week's of roster at a time. Dealing with the load on my hands at the moment.Hopefully,things will blow over soon enough.
On the era of friendship,I feel better being back in business meeting up and hanging out with Phebe,Syahid and Xinning more oftenly.
Syahid - Can't wait to go see your muddykippy performance at marina! Better make it extra entertaining because I will be watching,haha! Found a new prata hangout, heard from my friend that the prata is so nice and the curry is so fresh,you would end up eating twice of what you intended to order.haha.
Phebe - Thanks for keeping back in contact after the 1 year drought,haha. Its nice to have your company and chatting with you brings back the old times back in CHEC which happens to be my least favourite school. And thank you so much for the dedication to me in your blog,feeling very special.haha! Hope your terrible headache has subsided alot..
Xing Xing - you look good in heels! you know why? because when you walk,got style,haha. you thought i was gonna say the 5 letter S word right?hehe..
I have been watching lotsa movies with my baby lately. And its gonna get more exciting with indiana jones and prince caspian in the same week with only 3 days difference,haha! Getting my paycheck on the same day of my 21 months anniversary. this time,I gotta be very careful with how my spend my money,save all that I can so on a very special day,I just whack my wallet clean,hehe.Just Kidding.
Gonna meet Dewi and the rest in about an hour plus for dinner at Carl's junior. I wonder if there are any burgers with zero pork,very most I will just order the Beef Cheesy Fries.
I will try my best to not make my next post be posted long time away ok?hehe. Continue tagging and I will make my posts as beautiful as it can be.haha! Take care!
On the era of friendship,I feel better being back in business meeting up and hanging out with Phebe,Syahid and Xinning more oftenly.
Syahid - Can't wait to go see your muddykippy performance at marina! Better make it extra entertaining because I will be watching,haha! Found a new prata hangout, heard from my friend that the prata is so nice and the curry is so fresh,you would end up eating twice of what you intended to order.haha.
Phebe - Thanks for keeping back in contact after the 1 year drought,haha. Its nice to have your company and chatting with you brings back the old times back in CHEC which happens to be my least favourite school. And thank you so much for the dedication to me in your blog,feeling very special.haha! Hope your terrible headache has subsided alot..
Xing Xing - you look good in heels! you know why? because when you walk,got style,haha. you thought i was gonna say the 5 letter S word right?hehe..
I have been watching lotsa movies with my baby lately. And its gonna get more exciting with indiana jones and prince caspian in the same week with only 3 days difference,haha! Getting my paycheck on the same day of my 21 months anniversary. this time,I gotta be very careful with how my spend my money,save all that I can so on a very special day,I just whack my wallet clean,hehe.Just Kidding.
Gonna meet Dewi and the rest in about an hour plus for dinner at Carl's junior. I wonder if there are any burgers with zero pork,very most I will just order the Beef Cheesy Fries.
I will try my best to not make my next post be posted long time away ok?hehe. Continue tagging and I will make my posts as beautiful as it can be.haha! Take care!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Updates..
I guess my peeps has been really curious to find out about what's been going on in my life huh? well, I am now in my third week of attachment over at new majestic hotel and its been really stressful,extremely challenging and joyfully fun at the same time. Surprisingly,my front office manager is super duper nice and patient,haha..it was difficult to adjust to life in the front desk but i managed to get through half the journey,i hope that by the end of next week,it would be a standard routine for me to walk over.
I finally met up with Phebe, syahid and xin ning after months of not seeing them,it was a long wait for supper with them at Adam's corner,we had a nice long chat and delicious meal. I really hope I won't have to wait for another few months to have an outing with Phebe again. please try and make yourself free when I am free, all right? haha..
Finally met up with my fellow toilet queen, fifi! met her for a drink at starbucks and had a refreshing chat like the day wouldn't end before her so-called date came along. So many incidents and stories from her life that i just knew about when she told me. better share more with me when there is,hehe..
Watched the forbidden kingdom with my baby but we missed the first half hour,sad.. before that week, we had swenson's for our date in quite a while already.I love the ice-cream student meal! i wanna go back again of another taste of the delicious poodle of ice-cream,haha.. hope i get to spend time with you again and soon because I so miss you so so much!
That's all for now folks,
Until then, cheers!
I finally met up with Phebe, syahid and xin ning after months of not seeing them,it was a long wait for supper with them at Adam's corner,we had a nice long chat and delicious meal. I really hope I won't have to wait for another few months to have an outing with Phebe again. please try and make yourself free when I am free, all right? haha..
Finally met up with my fellow toilet queen, fifi! met her for a drink at starbucks and had a refreshing chat like the day wouldn't end before her so-called date came along. So many incidents and stories from her life that i just knew about when she told me. better share more with me when there is,hehe..
Watched the forbidden kingdom with my baby but we missed the first half hour,sad.. before that week, we had swenson's for our date in quite a while already.I love the ice-cream student meal! i wanna go back again of another taste of the delicious poodle of ice-cream,haha.. hope i get to spend time with you again and soon because I so miss you so so much!
That's all for now folks,
Until then, cheers!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Happy Again
Well, I must say its been quite a while since I last to0uched on the events of my blog. been too busy with work at charcoal these few weeks, devoting 8 hours everyday. Come to think of which, how I miss Sha Villa so.. The more I work at the restaurant outlets, the more I miss my housekeeping and front office times spent. well,just another 1.5 weeks of shifts to complete before the start of my 7 days holiday and I am gonna spend it all with my precious every moment of it.
Dehydrating for the past few months, only getting to go on a date with you once every 2 weeks. It was tormenting,it trained my resistance and patience but I wished the duration could have been shorter. This stupid training attachment has contributed alot to this suffering that I had to endure. At least, I feel great about the time I got to share have with you today. all 2 hours were worth every 14 days we spent apart from each other,except through the phone and msn.Hugging and holding you tightly was enough to let you know how much I missed you. I didn't have to say anything,just listening to the rate of my heartbeat assured you well enough.
Looking foeward to our next date! Hahak!
Dehydrating for the past few months, only getting to go on a date with you once every 2 weeks. It was tormenting,it trained my resistance and patience but I wished the duration could have been shorter. This stupid training attachment has contributed alot to this suffering that I had to endure. At least, I feel great about the time I got to share have with you today. all 2 hours were worth every 14 days we spent apart from each other,except through the phone and msn.Hugging and holding you tightly was enough to let you know how much I missed you. I didn't have to say anything,just listening to the rate of my heartbeat assured you well enough.
Looking foeward to our next date! Hahak!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Many events
well, many events took place recently. There was a function early this week catering to about 17 people in the private function room. It was a good experience being a server,runner and captain. and working with paige,tingting and fifi made the work so much easier because communication was high in demand. it feels like you're on cloud nine when a ton of guests compliments you.I hope to improve better as a restaurant service staff in charcoal.After all,practice does make perfect! and i got an evaluation of 71/100 from mr Marcus Au,haha!same mark as fifi! Hi^ 5! haha..
To the 2 whom I gave tons of advice to,don't fret. the good point of impact will come to you soon,just wait in patience.I believe that difficult times don't last forever so hang in there! And give a big big smile!!!! haha..
Missing you like mad.. wonder when i can hug you again,i won't ever let go..
Night Night!
To the 2 whom I gave tons of advice to,don't fret. the good point of impact will come to you soon,just wait in patience.I believe that difficult times don't last forever so hang in there! And give a big big smile!!!! haha..
Missing you like mad.. wonder when i can hug you again,i won't ever let go..
Night Night!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Long, Long, Long
Its gonna be one hell of a long entry considering I haven't been blogging like forever.HAHA.
So I started training in Rosette and I must say that although its been quite a bumpy ride, I did have fun,but still not as beautiful as my times in Sha Villa.I started my first 2 days as a bartender and I screwed up badly. Have also been a captain, server, runner, aboyeyur and most unfortunately a steward as well. I hate being a steward. Its most frustrating when you have to keep washing the dishes every now and then at all times till the restaurant closes.Now going through the last week in Rosette and I think I am gonna miss it.
Made quite a sum of friends from the DHM batch,a bunch of pretty good chaps there and quite an unforgettable 3 weeks i had in there so far.now being in attachment with the B class and this batch is quite a funny bunch.I had fun on the first day with them in the restaurant for dinner shift. It was very busy today,lots of quarrels between the restaurant staff and the kitchen staff. Then again,how easy is it not to have a little dispute once in a while..Looking forward to tomorrow's shift,hope I get the same station as Fifi,then can chit-chat while on duty,haha!
I am so happy! I got the hotel and gonna go for the contract signing with New Majestic Hotel! When I told Baby about this,she was so happy that even her temperature didn't matter to her,but pooor baby got sick and still had to out do project,must take care! Your Health much much much much more important,especially to me,wakaka!
Do stay tuned for more episodes of my journey in Rosette before I sink over to Charcoal with the Nagger of the millenium.You know, I know, I don't have to say out,haha! Night Night for now, I have to go sleep and wake up in 8 hours time..
So I started training in Rosette and I must say that although its been quite a bumpy ride, I did have fun,but still not as beautiful as my times in Sha Villa.I started my first 2 days as a bartender and I screwed up badly. Have also been a captain, server, runner, aboyeyur and most unfortunately a steward as well. I hate being a steward. Its most frustrating when you have to keep washing the dishes every now and then at all times till the restaurant closes.Now going through the last week in Rosette and I think I am gonna miss it.
Made quite a sum of friends from the DHM batch,a bunch of pretty good chaps there and quite an unforgettable 3 weeks i had in there so far.now being in attachment with the B class and this batch is quite a funny bunch.I had fun on the first day with them in the restaurant for dinner shift. It was very busy today,lots of quarrels between the restaurant staff and the kitchen staff. Then again,how easy is it not to have a little dispute once in a while..Looking forward to tomorrow's shift,hope I get the same station as Fifi,then can chit-chat while on duty,haha!
I am so happy! I got the hotel and gonna go for the contract signing with New Majestic Hotel! When I told Baby about this,she was so happy that even her temperature didn't matter to her,but pooor baby got sick and still had to out do project,must take care! Your Health much much much much more important,especially to me,wakaka!
Do stay tuned for more episodes of my journey in Rosette before I sink over to Charcoal with the Nagger of the millenium.You know, I know, I don't have to say out,haha! Night Night for now, I have to go sleep and wake up in 8 hours time..
Monday, February 4, 2008
Carry Me In Your Arms
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn’t know how to say it. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She shouted at me, ” you are not a man!”
That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Linda. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it to pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said, for I loved Linda so dearly.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell fast asleep because I was tired after an eventful day with Linda. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just didn't care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month, we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.
Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Linda about my wife’s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she has, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any physical contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was greying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Linda about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me: she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come close and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office… jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Linda opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Linda, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Linda, I said, I won’t divorce my wife. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until one of us departs this world.
Linda seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build a relationship.
This story was not created by me but by the courtesy of al-Islaah Publication, with minor modifications.
To my precious honey, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old! hehe!
Suddenly I didn’t know how to say it. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She shouted at me, ” you are not a man!”
That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Linda. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it to pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said, for I loved Linda so dearly.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell fast asleep because I was tired after an eventful day with Linda. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just didn't care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month, we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.
Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Linda about my wife’s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she has, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any physical contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was greying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Linda about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me: she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come close and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office… jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Linda opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Linda, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Linda, I said, I won’t divorce my wife. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until one of us departs this world.
Linda seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build a relationship.
This story was not created by me but by the courtesy of al-Islaah Publication, with minor modifications.
To my precious honey, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old! hehe!
Friday, February 1, 2008
A week of events
A week I haven't blog, must be curious to know what has been going on in my life huh? I finally managed to meet my baby after almost 2 weeks of zero direct contact, only on the phone and through messaging. It was sensational and very lovable. It was also our 17 months together when we met up. I also learnt a new cute name to call her,hehe. the next day, we went to delifrance at lot 1 for tea. I had tuna baguettes and she had ice cream wth chocolate sauce muffin. Sedap Giler sio! haha, next time, I am gonna bring her there again for a meal during tea.
Enlightened by Mr Balgit and approaching me for needing me in an important function in Rosette, I wonder what it could be. 'Stop saying sorry if you have done nothing wrong'.
Nearing the end of my attachment in Sha Villa, I am really sad to leave it. but looking forward to my attachment in Rosette,just want to make the best out of this attachment.not happy with my team because i hoped to do it with my other 3 musketeers. fifi, paige and nick for which we were the same group in housekeeping and front office. sadly for ting ting and I, even we both couldn't be in the same team. its all right, new experiences with new team members. now i wonder how we will get through with the commanding side of DHM.
Finishing off my resume, now I hope to get into the hotel I have longed for which is Swissotel Merchant Court. Wish me luck because I think I am gonna need alot of it.haha.
Last night at my 5th lesson of Basic Islam was quite interesting,I learned about the 25 prophets and prayed with my ustaz.he asked me to join him and practise the movements. It was quite fun because I felt light during the experience. Maybe next time, in a few years, I can learn the words as well. Now my homework is to list the 25 prophets in order of sequence in arabic names. Seems difficult but I would give it a try. After all, next week's lesson has been cancelelled as majority of the class will be going on holiday.haha.
Until tomorrow or within the next few days for my next entry, Au Revoir Everyone!
Missing You Loads Baby!
Enlightened by Mr Balgit and approaching me for needing me in an important function in Rosette, I wonder what it could be. 'Stop saying sorry if you have done nothing wrong'.
Nearing the end of my attachment in Sha Villa, I am really sad to leave it. but looking forward to my attachment in Rosette,just want to make the best out of this attachment.not happy with my team because i hoped to do it with my other 3 musketeers. fifi, paige and nick for which we were the same group in housekeeping and front office. sadly for ting ting and I, even we both couldn't be in the same team. its all right, new experiences with new team members. now i wonder how we will get through with the commanding side of DHM.
Finishing off my resume, now I hope to get into the hotel I have longed for which is Swissotel Merchant Court. Wish me luck because I think I am gonna need alot of it.haha.
Last night at my 5th lesson of Basic Islam was quite interesting,I learned about the 25 prophets and prayed with my ustaz.he asked me to join him and practise the movements. It was quite fun because I felt light during the experience. Maybe next time, in a few years, I can learn the words as well. Now my homework is to list the 25 prophets in order of sequence in arabic names. Seems difficult but I would give it a try. After all, next week's lesson has been cancelelled as majority of the class will be going on holiday.haha.
Until tomorrow or within the next few days for my next entry, Au Revoir Everyone!
Missing You Loads Baby!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Lame Post
Am now counting down the hours when i work the midnight shift later with mr rizal.hope he keeps me alert like he did for fifi.I am so tiredddd right now! All i can think about is seeing you tomorrow baby,if we can meet up.jason and shazzie! i miss you 2 like crazy.along wth hakim and farihin! we should triple date soon once again!haha..
Simpang Bedok!! I was supposed to eat you with my team but until now still no plans.A BIG SIGH..hope that can make plans with them soon so i can taste your delicious food once again!haha..
Gonna buy my naughtiest girl in the school within the next 3 days. Page 1 bookshop,wait for me to come to you,haha..
I am so hungry right now that i could eat an elephant! ok,maybe not to that extent..haha,i am being lame now,haha..
Thanks for the tips and information fifi,you should blog everyday about these info so i will have fun reading it.about your life events of course i will have fun reading it too,don't be mistaken,haha..
That's all for now folks,will update you in the morning for events during the night shift! where there a will,there's a way! haha,always remember that..
Simpang Bedok!! I was supposed to eat you with my team but until now still no plans.A BIG SIGH..hope that can make plans with them soon so i can taste your delicious food once again!haha..
Gonna buy my naughtiest girl in the school within the next 3 days. Page 1 bookshop,wait for me to come to you,haha..
I am so hungry right now that i could eat an elephant! ok,maybe not to that extent..haha,i am being lame now,haha..
Thanks for the tips and information fifi,you should blog everyday about these info so i will have fun reading it.about your life events of course i will have fun reading it too,don't be mistaken,haha..
That's all for now folks,will update you in the morning for events during the night shift! where there a will,there's a way! haha,always remember that..
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Best Day Of Experience!
Now i gotta admit that front office is alot more entertaining and fun than housekeeping.the excitement and anxiety and fears is what keeps you intrigued on finding out more on what to do in front desk.I have experienced many ups and downs today. shall not name what the bad experience was,all i can say is that the guest didn't take things very well and brought it to my manager.everything was all right as he knew that i did my best in how the situation was portrayed and i respect him for thinking that way.then I had to room at least 5 different parties of guest to their respective rooms and managed to get quite an amount of tips,haha.I had a good time being the servvice provider and chatting with the guest as i roomed them,being empathetic to know what they need.then go ntuc and help fifi but her chocolate.that girl and her sweet tooth.then more rooming in of guests to be done and i did quite a good job i must admit.haha,ok now i am flattering myself.sorry!spent most of the remaining hours having fun and chatting with carina and fifi.carina is a good teacher in front office,the way she explains is like i understand so much better than when rizal and joanna explains.A really efficient service provider!after fnishing work,went home and ate supper. bloody fuck! $6 for 1 main,1 side and rice just because that main dish is a special type of prawn..so special type of abalone will coast $1000 is it?total bullshit..never mind,mistake learned,i won't buy prawns for a maihn dish anymore,haha! by the way fifi,when i say soon,you must trust me and be patient.i will deliver what was promised,haha.especially to a good friend like you,i will put in double the effort for that special package,haha.know what i mean?
I think i better go and sleep now,my baby will be angry if she finds out that i sleep late.haha.tomorrow starting from 3 and ending at 11,i think i will probably be there an hour earlier to get ready,hehe. night night!! sweet dreams!
I think i better go and sleep now,my baby will be angry if she finds out that i sleep late.haha.tomorrow starting from 3 and ending at 11,i think i will probably be there an hour earlier to get ready,hehe. night night!! sweet dreams!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Many events
Many events have taken place..Have been very busy at front office.Special condolences to ma'am,please take good care of yourself.I can't wait to start work at front desk again!!! haha..was called on my offday to do housekeeping again,although it was expected,but i was hoping to rest the day off.went over to pick up my baby from school,sent her home and managed to spend quality time with her.although there was some friction,but we managed to smoothen the surface soon after a few hours,haha. As for fifi,don't worry at all. jerks are what the world is filled with so it isn't surprisngly that you have to fall for one because now all you gotta do is learn from mistake and not let yourself succumb to another jerk again.the right guy will show up soon before you reliase that its already morning when you wake up,haha.so what i am saying is that it is very soon,hehe.by the way,thanks so much again for letting me buy your phone! you simply rock!!!!!!!!haha..now i will have a much easier time slipping it up and down. Hope Mr Ithin can let me come back for work tomorrow! I will be so bored at home!! Night night baby! Miss you and can't wait to see you again! Night Night to the rest of my peeps! remember this, Difficult Times Don't Last Forever.. so hang in there!!Cheers!
Friday, January 18, 2008
Back for 1 day..
Was back to housekeeping for a day.. Paired up with yi hong and we accomplished about 10 rooms together..It was quite fun but it didn't feel right as I didn't do it with my group of peeps. went for my 3rd class of the Islam basic course after work.today,i learned about the belief of angels and learning who Jibra'il really is.Then met fifi for an hour,drank starbucks coffee while talking about stuff and walked her back to the hotel.the banquet event just finished and after which i walked back to the mrt with shahir,sandy and cyrus.must be thinkning why my blog for today is so boring?because my heart is not there..ok,i will be going for work later at 11pm to 7am.gonna sleep now,night night!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Terrorizing the Front Desk
Thank goodness I am early today or Sha Villa would have skinned me alive.haha,just joking.First day for front office and I am so bloody nervous.Arrived for work dull as a baby,dim like a cloudy full moon.Joanna had a hard time teaching me everything about the front desk from scratch.haha.Pity her but at least I managed to pick up a few things which her efforts eventually paid off.But knowing what a KLUTZ I am, I made quite a few mistakes.Screwing up transferring Room-to-room calls,checking in and out the guests,answering calls and communicating with the housekeeping for Vacant and Dirty rooms at large.After a while,i got the hang of it,but still rusty as usual.Everything that was asked did not get into my brain because I had a major jam inside like from Pasir Ris to Jurong East.Giving wake-up calls and picking up the dry-cleaning was quite fun,haha! thern,when tingting came over for her shift,we went to rom the guests together and opened the doors for guests,booked them cabs,chat with them and a few other tasks. It was pretty intense at first but it toned down soon after when we got used to doing it.Although i prefer housekeeping still,I think I am gonna learn quite a lot from doing front office.Poor fifi,came over for work hungry and happy.haha,you should know that yourself.Waited for an important call or message to get through to me but i stayed at the front desk till that call was received.Judging from the tone of my sentence,the call didn't end very well as you know it and I left the building with a real heavy heart and black face.Everyone at front desk thought I just received a call in the matter of life and death.Fifi knew what happened but kept quiet for she knew I didn't feel like saying anything about it..And then, I was invited to go have dinner with 2 soon-to-be couples at different timings,but I told them I didn't wanna be a lightbulb so I rejected them at instant.Anyway,the 2 people I know well looked so cute together but the other 2,no offense but there's no direct match between them at all.And Fifi,thank you for the advice! It hepled me alot! Yeah,you're Doctor Love and the world's greatest advisor! haha..But i also give quite good advice too,you're far better than I am,no question about that..Housekeeping tomorrow!!! yay! I get to work with ma'am,nana and desmond..FUN FUN FUN..Poor tingting,nick and Fifi,gotta endure front desk tomorrow..NOw I am gonna sleep and wait for a special night night call from someone special before I go to dreamland in peace.I really needed to hear your voice tonight Baby and I am so happy I finally got what i wished for,Muacks!Nights to all!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Last Day..
Speak of the devil as I screw up today.What the hell came over me? Its like having lightning strike at the same spot.Being late for work again,screwing up cleaning the room on time and making it so imperfect,having piss off Mr Ithin for a mistake that was caused by Mindy.And it took 2 DHM students to tarnish the reputation of CHRO.It was the last day of housekeeping for my group before we were all distributed into different shifts of front office.Nick,Tingting,Paige And Fifi..2 and a half weeks very worth spending with you guys.if only we can continue housekeeping,it would be so nice.Gonna start at 7am tomorrow,hope to be early and sharp in the morning.then seeing Tingting at 12 and fifi at 3.gonna sleep now,night!missing ma baby loads!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
A Day Of Blur-ness..
There are times that you realise that everything can really be one-sided. Its like you listen to my stuff,but i don't listen to yours. Its very half-hearted how this one-sided affair works.but you have to get used to it because that's what patience is really all about. You turn to the wall or to the ceiling because you realise that its all become quite dull and you don't want to lose hope but traffic has stopped and all the cars are conjested from the root to all roads of the city.Sometimes you wonder if you would and could be wrong so you can get back what you have lost unconsciously,but things are usually beyond your reach when you realise that its all become very dim.
today was very slow on my part.my first room of the day,i took 1hr and 45 mins just to clean up the checkout room.i don't know what on earth came over me.even ma'am almost lost her patience with me.maybe i am not used to cleaning rooms alone but i can sure say that I am the toilet King of ShaVilla.haha.how i wish that for my 6 months of attachment,Swissotel Merchant Court can accept me.I would be so honoured even if i was paid FOC.All I need is the experience and the improvements for perfection in what i do best.Anyway,today fifi and paige kept on bullying me.So sad,haha. But i like it! kidding,don't take advantage of me,hehe.and worse still,chuck trying to ruin the reputation of fifi and i by opening his mouth and telling tales.how 'NICE' of him..tomorrow is the last day for housekeeping for my group and I really hope that we can go to simpang for dinner! always get cancelled last minute.hiya..hope i won't screw anything up tmr.Night Night! I am tired now,wanna sleep.haha!
today was very slow on my part.my first room of the day,i took 1hr and 45 mins just to clean up the checkout room.i don't know what on earth came over me.even ma'am almost lost her patience with me.maybe i am not used to cleaning rooms alone but i can sure say that I am the toilet King of ShaVilla.haha.how i wish that for my 6 months of attachment,Swissotel Merchant Court can accept me.I would be so honoured even if i was paid FOC.All I need is the experience and the improvements for perfection in what i do best.Anyway,today fifi and paige kept on bullying me.So sad,haha. But i like it! kidding,don't take advantage of me,hehe.and worse still,chuck trying to ruin the reputation of fifi and i by opening his mouth and telling tales.how 'NICE' of him..tomorrow is the last day for housekeeping for my group and I really hope that we can go to simpang for dinner! always get cancelled last minute.hiya..hope i won't screw anything up tmr.Night Night! I am tired now,wanna sleep.haha!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
A long entry..
Thursday - having gone through a busy day at work,I still was determined to go through with the dinner function as a butler.3 hours for $50 is quite a good price and thankyou shahir for letting me participate in his mum's catering event.the function was fabulous! I managed to go through a wonderous experience as it was my first formal public event.I made quite a few mistakes and I am going to learn from mistake so the next time round,i will perform better and with more enthusiam for the job.after the whole event,$50 fell right into my wallet,haha.when i got home,i was so freaking tired but i talked to baby on the ohone for about 15 mins.18 hours out of the house,I am literally shagged.
Friday - this is one of the best days of 2008 so far. went out with baby,hakim and farihin to sentosa for a double date.i overslept and managed to get farihin and hakim to pick me up at my house.just as well, i was completely shagged the previous night that i could hardly walk properly,haha.I felt bad about leaving paige and afiqah to manage all the rooms,they really need a break.and based on what i have heard,Mr ithin was so cruel to push them just to get all the rooms done urgently.I felt bad because i had sucha good time.anyway, continuing, picked up baby at harbour front centre and she bought for me tim tam!! yay! thank you baby! Love it and you so much! reached palawan beach in a while and we set up a picnic there.had sandwiches,biscuits,mee goreng and ice lemon tea.baby's mum made for me! haha,she said that just to make me happy,but i did enjoy the sandwiches,can't get enough of it.wakaka!hakim and baby sat on the mat talking and playing psp as they both didn't want to get inside the water,just girl talk among themselves.then,farihin and i went in for a dip,the water was bloody cold at first but we got used to the temperature after a while then we came out and those 2 went to take a shower first and I stayed with my baby on the mat listening to songs and she tickling me with her feet,haha.then after bathing and everything, we proceeded to vivocity to watch body number 19, that show is freaking scary and contradicting like giler! fifi,you should seriously consider watching it some time when you're free,don't go alone,its too scary that even i tak boleh tahan.before that,we went to ben and jerry and the cookie cookie sundae was like super duper sedap! wanna go there again some time.haha.then farihin sent baby home and sent me to the Al-falah mosque for my class.lesson number 2! i am so glad that the previous class was cancelled as I was sick from diarrhoea the previous week.fantastic class for lesson 2!
Saturday - very tiring day at work.worked with firdaus,paige,yan ting and fifi.everything went according to plan and we finished on time.actually,we finished at 2 sharp! again! haha..but sad for paige,she only leave at 5. i went to vivo after that to buy dippin donut,it was simply splendid.ate 6 donuts in an hour!haha..can't wait to go simpang tmr with firdaus,his gf and fifi..Thats all for now! NIght s everyone,I have to wake up early tmr for work again! Night baby! Muacks!
Friday - this is one of the best days of 2008 so far. went out with baby,hakim and farihin to sentosa for a double date.i overslept and managed to get farihin and hakim to pick me up at my house.just as well, i was completely shagged the previous night that i could hardly walk properly,haha.I felt bad about leaving paige and afiqah to manage all the rooms,they really need a break.and based on what i have heard,Mr ithin was so cruel to push them just to get all the rooms done urgently.I felt bad because i had sucha good time.anyway, continuing, picked up baby at harbour front centre and she bought for me tim tam!! yay! thank you baby! Love it and you so much! reached palawan beach in a while and we set up a picnic there.had sandwiches,biscuits,mee goreng and ice lemon tea.baby's mum made for me! haha,she said that just to make me happy,but i did enjoy the sandwiches,can't get enough of it.wakaka!hakim and baby sat on the mat talking and playing psp as they both didn't want to get inside the water,just girl talk among themselves.then,farihin and i went in for a dip,the water was bloody cold at first but we got used to the temperature after a while then we came out and those 2 went to take a shower first and I stayed with my baby on the mat listening to songs and she tickling me with her feet,haha.then after bathing and everything, we proceeded to vivocity to watch body number 19, that show is freaking scary and contradicting like giler! fifi,you should seriously consider watching it some time when you're free,don't go alone,its too scary that even i tak boleh tahan.before that,we went to ben and jerry and the cookie cookie sundae was like super duper sedap! wanna go there again some time.haha.then farihin sent baby home and sent me to the Al-falah mosque for my class.lesson number 2! i am so glad that the previous class was cancelled as I was sick from diarrhoea the previous week.fantastic class for lesson 2!
Saturday - very tiring day at work.worked with firdaus,paige,yan ting and fifi.everything went according to plan and we finished on time.actually,we finished at 2 sharp! again! haha..but sad for paige,she only leave at 5. i went to vivo after that to buy dippin donut,it was simply splendid.ate 6 donuts in an hour!haha..can't wait to go simpang tmr with firdaus,his gf and fifi..Thats all for now! NIght s everyone,I have to wake up early tmr for work again! Night baby! Muacks!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Another Headache
Just as I am about to doze off,i have to get caught in another relationship.stressed with work and now I have to either take sides or stay out of it.As a wise man,it's best that i stay out of it because i already got enough problems on my hands.hope this problem will not affect me at work tomorrow.Let me get through a day with peace and quiet and not treat me like I am the answering machine for all relationships out there.the last thing i want is to be caught in the middle,i do not want a replica of last time and i turned out to be the bad guy when all I was trying to do is to salvage a relationship.I have a 3 month training attachment with almost no air to breathe,don't force me to smoke my ass up the chimney,if i have to be involved in it again,I would like to stay out of this because it ain't my fucking business.thank you and have a great day!
For special reasons, I cannot reveal names in this entry,sorry..
For special reasons, I cannot reveal names in this entry,sorry..
Feeling Much better Now..
These few days, the feeling of having a weak heart really sucks.it prevents me from doing my best at work but now that everything is much better,i think everything is gonna be fine.the routine of the love sickness has now been passed on to afiqah and nick is still sufferinhg from it.haha.had about 80% occupancy for today.one of the busiest days for housekeeping that I have been in.A total of 11 people to 40 rooms. As of tomorrow,it will be full house so I can be prepared to dehydrate myself.haha.Gonna work for 50 bucks tomorrow night,hehe!met my baby just now after work and spent about 20 mins with her.it was so worth it! before she called me,i was dead as a duck,then when my phone rang during work,i couldn't get the smile erased from my face!haha! gotta sleep soon for tomorrow's 8am shift,night night! call me same timing tomorrow morning frapps,thanks!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
My Haunted Past..
Some forget their past, some live with it. I definitely have to experience more than just living with it, it comes back to haunt me not at my brightest periods, but at my darkest periods and sinks me deeper into my emotions and attempts to destroys every happy feeling I have inside me. It's like having someone stab a gutter knife right into your heart and to make it worse, twist it 360 degrees several times till it is completely destroyed. How I wish I can forget my past, live in the present and hope that the future holds a good place for me. Through 18 years of my life, I have more than a thousand bad memories that I can't even start to think about what an impact they have caused me.well, at the 18th year, from bad memories reduced to about 50% thanks to a special someone walking into my life. But just thinking about the past gets me a whole box of tissue full of tears. Reliving it brings me down to hell like I have to be punished. You live with your past every single day of your life because the past contributes to make up for who you are. Facing my past is one of my biggest fears in life. I chose to run away from it because even a person runs away from a ghost if he sees one. I thought that for 8 hours of everyday, I could get some peace and quiet. But running away from it is much worse because it haunts you through nightmares. Even doing unnecessarily exercises doesn't help with that one bit. When I think of my haunted past, I start to envy those with long-term memory loss. They don't have to worry about anything at all and live so carefree. I am fighting a war against infinity troops but I am the only man. Feels impossible to conquer it. How do you kill something that creates part of who you are? I wish to have an answer for that...
Acting Blur
Late again but this time only for 23 mins.I plan to be early tomorrow for work,so it all depends on my wake-up call.haha.today was one of the busiest days of housekeeping,was paired up with paige and we had over 9-10 rooms to complete. it was pretty exhausting.the rest of everyone couldn't stop laughing at me because my love sickness continued and today it took a major snowstorm.mixing eveything up and behaving very blur.haha,even i couldn't understand it.A sumptous lunch today.NASI AYAM PENYET from the singtel building! Extremely delicious and only $3.50.super duper cheap sia! I eat until my stomach got butterflies,wakaka..Did public area cleaning with alex today,it was all right.the same old routine.then staff meal was fish with veggie and rice.i almost choked ona fish bone.my precious will kill me when she reads that i wasn't careful with eating food again.especially fish! I hate fish with bone! always give me a hard time trying to swallow it when it gets stuck in my throat.tomorrow is gonna be interesting,at least 30 occupied rooms to be done on both floors and i hope to be paired up with chris and afiqah.It would be so fun! one is a Goddess of toliets and the other is a Bed-making Prince.As for me,I self -proclaim myself as The royal subject of Royal Toilet Scrubber!And also Furniture Polish Emperor.haha.I must be day-dreaming again.gonna buy munchy donuts tomorrow after work! I am gonna eat to my heart's content and no one is gonna stop me.haha. Night Night! tune in for the next episode..
Monday, January 7, 2008
Love Sick!
A real shame.i was hoping to be at work on time,but i ended up 48 minutes late..i gave the toilet queen a wake up call..oops,now her status has been updated. She is now the Goddess of toilets.haha.does that count for something nice to say about you?today,ma'am's mood very very bad,just a few small mistakes made by afiqah and I,an explosion occured within seconds.and it was without warning.but i understand why she would react this way having taken a 3 days' leave and coming back just to notice that the housekeeping was in a grave mess.lunch was quite terrible.the indian shop finally had prata on the menu and i ordered 3 plain prata.the prata tasted so cold and not crispy at all,it seemed like the person making it left it there for hours because serving it to the customers. after that,both afiqah and i didn't feel good in the stomach area as we ate the same food but she ordered 2 egg instead.i ended up farting countless of times whilst doing the cleaning of rooms.of course,i used the air-freshener for all of the rooms!quarrels and commotions happened behind the scenes of the hotel that was unavoidable but at least almost all was resolved.but the Goddess of toilets was not at her best as she is feeling rather down these days.as for me,i am super-duper love sick because i miss my girlfriend so much!even ma'am notice the change in me for today as i made the bed of the last room wrongly..I stayed with alex and afiqah to do public area cleaning after nick and tingting went home.in the end,we stayed at the linen room and chat for a longer time about topics that should only be discussed among the hotel and don't ask me for details!haha..really miss paige these 2 days.at least can work with her tmr again,miss her jokes and her favourite phrase,'stupid gordon,i kick your ass then you know!'haha..went to eat mac's with afiqah after work..then so sad my phone died and baby couldn't get through to me.now i am hungry,i need something sweet to keep me sane.hahahahak!!!alarm clock! please call me wake up at 6 am tomorrow,thank you! NIght night!
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Early Deaparture!
Yay! Dismissed from work early today! was paired up with afiqah and firdaus and managed to complete everything not only on time but much earlier than expected.not many checkout rooms,just do touch-up.Stupid indian stall stopped selling prata after breakfast is over!i wanted to eat the prata but ended up eating mee goreng which didn't quite satisfy my appetite as i was looking to resolute my hunger with something more delicious,haha.Finished work at 2pm,leaving nick all alone by himself till 6pm.Poor nick..accompanied afiqah to buy a shirt at wisma's G2000 and then with firdaus to far east to buy shirt for his girlfriend.Talking while walking,it was fun! We were completely washed out and decidedd to go home straight after the shopping spree.As i reached home,i crashed into my bed after less than an hour of slacking at home.Slept like a little bunny all the way till 11pm.Typing this blog entry as I am yawning like I could sleep for till morning.NOw i need enough rest for my next shift tomorrow or it will be a replica for what happened this morning.I gotta remind myself to ring the toilet queen at 8am tomorrow because my guess is she's sleeping till afternoon if she wanted to.haha.I have a feeling that someone is gonna say again that my toilet cleaning sucks.hahaha..
Missing MY BABY ALOT! Good Night And Sweet Dreams! Muacks Muacks!
Missing MY BABY ALOT! Good Night And Sweet Dreams! Muacks Muacks!
Saturday, January 5, 2008
A Wondeful Day Of Dates!
Today,it was unfortunate that I had to work on a saturday.as usual-from 8am to 4pm.There were about 15 checkout rooms divided into 2 groups of 3 each.I practised on my speed of cleaning the toilet and I managed to prove afiqah and paige wrong by finishing just in time for chris to finish making the bed and polishing the furniture.haha!very happy for that achievement! Lunch was simply atrocious..chicken drumstick with overcoked rice and mixed veggie in thai chili sauce..it was amazing that i finished at least 2/3 of the plate.I literally controlled my appetite and not puke anything out.After lunch,we went back to cleaning the rooms and slacked at 2pm as there were simply very little rooms to clean as they were all DND.Paige couldn't get any sleep because everytime she rest her head,somebody would either come in or call her on her hp.haha.quite cool actually!As i finished my shift,I rushed all the way over to the grand cathay to meet up with my precious and the other 2 lovebirds (jason and Shazzie) I miss those 2 so much! the 4 of us watched national treasure from 5.30 to 7.30..Baby and I watched it for the second time.we enjoyed the time spent very much! After the movie,we met up with hakim and farihin then the 6 of us went to simpang bedok for dinner + supper = dinper! lol! we ate western,kway teow,hor fun and a variety of thirst-quenching drinks. that was our first triple couple date in a long while.I miss hanging out like this,just the 6 of us because we make a great combination!hehe..After that was quite sad because shazzie's mum picked her up and my baby's dad picked her up at the same place,same time. Luckily he didn't see me or I might be roasted alive.haha,kidding..then,farihin sent me home first,thanks again dude!followed by jason and hakim..when i reached home,I kept on burping and farting so much that i had lotsa difficulty sleeping..It's because i ate too much.but can't blame me because i did not have a decent meal till dinper time.As I am typing this blog,i can feel my stomach growling like it wants me to fart again.haha..gross right?i know! ok,i shall stop here because i need enough sleep before my next shift at 8am.All housekeeping H1 staff,meet same place same time! Good night and cheers!
Friday, January 4, 2008
A Day of Fun and Agony
Happily sleeping in bed and I got a call from Ting ting saying that housekeeping is shorthanded as the irresponsible spoilt swiss kid refused to show up for work after extending his 2 weeks of vacation with an extra week. Although it was kinda tiring to wake up just to report for work,at least i got what i wanted. As i recently fell in love with housekeeping,not doing it for one day kinda sucks. Okay,very sucks!haha..
Reaching the hotel at 9 just like i promised alex,mr ithin was happy to see me as he knew how the department was needing extra help.shortly after,nick arrived and his face was so black because he slept at 4am hoping that he wouldn't have to come back for work so i promised mr ithin that we will be on standby.Without ma'am,it was difficult to do everything up to expectations but alex managed to oversee most of it.as usual,i did the toilet cleaning for most of the rooms.after yesterday's experience with the strong smelling toilet,i realised that such a challenge was totally worth it,because i learned patience and stamina but i gotta work on my timing to finish it fast.
The 5 of us (Tingting,Paige,Nick,Afiqah and I) became fast good friends in just a matter of days. I guess hanging out together everyday talking and sharing about our life brought us much closer than we thought we would.The food court at the singtel com centre is totally cheap, delicious and value-for money! I love the beehoon from the malay stall,so spicy and juicy at the same time! sadly i had diarrhoea today so i had to prevent myself from eating anything spicy.up till now,its so painful!!!Ended up buying 2-1.5 litres of water just to get over the stupid stomachache. then,we had a half an hour break talking about different topic,we never seem to run out of topics to talk about,its so fun! we finished all the chores a little too fast ending at 2pm.after that,ended up talking till 3pm.then everyone went off early.i accompanied afiqah till 6 teaching her the Public Area chores and chatting with her just waiting for 6 pm to arrive so we can go home.
As we finished,i went home to pass every motion at home that i needed to ended up resting in bed sleeping the pain away for about 3 hours.feeling so much better now but still in pain.hopefully i recover in time for tomorrow's shift at 8am.so tired!!!AAArrrrGGGGghhhh! okay,I had to relieve some tension.haha,I think I am getting cranky..Gonnna crash in bed now,Good night!
Baby,by the way,I miss you so so much! can't wait to see and hug you tomorrow!haha!Night NIght!Muacks muacks muacks!
Tune in fr my nect blogging entry,till then,ciao and cheers!
Reaching the hotel at 9 just like i promised alex,mr ithin was happy to see me as he knew how the department was needing extra help.shortly after,nick arrived and his face was so black because he slept at 4am hoping that he wouldn't have to come back for work so i promised mr ithin that we will be on standby.Without ma'am,it was difficult to do everything up to expectations but alex managed to oversee most of it.as usual,i did the toilet cleaning for most of the rooms.after yesterday's experience with the strong smelling toilet,i realised that such a challenge was totally worth it,because i learned patience and stamina but i gotta work on my timing to finish it fast.
The 5 of us (Tingting,Paige,Nick,Afiqah and I) became fast good friends in just a matter of days. I guess hanging out together everyday talking and sharing about our life brought us much closer than we thought we would.The food court at the singtel com centre is totally cheap, delicious and value-for money! I love the beehoon from the malay stall,so spicy and juicy at the same time! sadly i had diarrhoea today so i had to prevent myself from eating anything spicy.up till now,its so painful!!!Ended up buying 2-1.5 litres of water just to get over the stupid stomachache. then,we had a half an hour break talking about different topic,we never seem to run out of topics to talk about,its so fun! we finished all the chores a little too fast ending at 2pm.after that,ended up talking till 3pm.then everyone went off early.i accompanied afiqah till 6 teaching her the Public Area chores and chatting with her just waiting for 6 pm to arrive so we can go home.
As we finished,i went home to pass every motion at home that i needed to ended up resting in bed sleeping the pain away for about 3 hours.feeling so much better now but still in pain.hopefully i recover in time for tomorrow's shift at 8am.so tired!!!AAArrrrGGGGghhhh! okay,I had to relieve some tension.haha,I think I am getting cranky..Gonnna crash in bed now,Good night!
Baby,by the way,I miss you so so much! can't wait to see and hug you tomorrow!haha!Night NIght!Muacks muacks muacks!
Tune in fr my nect blogging entry,till then,ciao and cheers!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Housekeeping with its ups and downs
I finally have the time to do a new post on my blog after so long! this week as it has been 4 days so far,have been through orientation for front office and housekeeping. although i mentioned that i loved front office but i realised that i have fallen head over heels for housekeeping.without it, i can feel like something is missing. I am now known as the royal toilet scrubber because washing the hotel toilet is so fun except when stuff that happens. don't wanna let the cat outta the bag but its basically having to wash what you're not supposed to and i realised that people can be so disgusting in what they leave behind.whether its a stain or a piece of hard plastic,its really beyond your eyes to see.i had a whole ton of experience today and i practically spent about half an hour in the room trying to dis-infect all the germs.of course i wore gloves..but overall,everything in the housekeeping turned out all right.strengthened relationships with a few friends and i think i have grown more responsible and patient in terms of attitude.this is gonna sound crazy but i think i wanna do housekeeping for my next 6 months of attachment,i am simply too attached to sha villa in housekeeping.wish i could get the chance to do so.haha.till then, i am gonna work hard in sha villa and leave a good impression so i can work there in a few months time.